I stoped talking to my friends bcuz of my depression. I feel lonely but I can't talk to my friend about how i feel bcuz I dont know how to express that.
I think that have  effects my health, I got stomach aches, headaches and my hands can't stop shaking due to anxiety. I might need help but I can't ask for it anx I hate that cuz it is killing me! 

Depression

If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.

3am Thoughts

I was teaching in a NGO it's been 1. 5 months the children over there are learning but last few days they have been behaving like anything . Today I got very pissed and walked off from the class . They either run away or don't concentrate on what is going I know they have not been a environment where u have to sit with full concentration but sometimes I feel that my efforts are wasted . I don't get paid for that I teach because I want to . Sometimes I feel like may be I don't teach well that's why they don't sit . Tommoro I have to call the head to inform about the same . I am very confused . I don't want to leave . I am crying but then then what about my efforts no one is benefiting from this . 

Adulting

Back to work which is good because I have something to do. The only thing is I got used to talking to him on my breaks so that would be a drag but I downloaded Netflix and perhaps that would help. I always wonder if he would surprise me on my route and I would anticipate with butterflies as I pulled into my first terminal. However, that never once happened so I have to be realistic that it probably never will. Having suspended my FB account, my hands are so idle and bored. I downloaded a meditation app as well as a gratitude app to try to get my mind in a positive direction. One day at a time.

Relationships

ok so like, my boyfriend always ends up cancelling plans. like we're in same college, he stays kinda far but when we make plans for meeting, he always ends up cancelling them the next day by giving reasons. Just like yesterday, we had pre-decided (saturday) to meet for a cute date(on Monday) but later on he bailed at last moment saying he forgot to tell that he had some work. I'm so pissed by this but also tired.  

Boyfriend

It’s too early in the day to already start feeling this sadness😔

Is it normal to focus on studies and not have  a boyfriend in your  teens? 


FOMO

Tell me about your qualities

That overwhelming feeling is back. I cannot concentrate on shit, and I'm annoyed that I'm not doing anything in life. It feels like every minute of my life is going to waste. I wake up every day to the same feeling and not do anything again, and then I sleep every day thinking; "It's ok, tomorrow you'll start doing whatever you want to do." 

But I don't. I wake up disturbed by office calls. I start feeling this thing, it overwhelms me so much that I can't even watch Netflix or anything because my heart is not in it. If I scroll mindlessly on other apps, I see either BTS(they play a major role in my life) or other people doing things and making the best of their lives, that again only reminds me that I'm not doing what I am supposed to be doing. I am wasting my precious time, mind, skills and youth. This sucks. 

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