I saw me ex after 3months today. Been in relationship for 2.5 years. And i felt nothing. Except the rise in my heartbeat for a bit.

3am Thoughts

so I had friends with benefits with one of my greatest friend we had if you watch misunderstanding and fight because of one of his friend and I was somewhere at fault too.so after that he has stopped talking to me and has been ignoring me he ignores my presence as if I have vanished from this whole world. This started affecting me I was getting affected too much I was feeling as a Someone is squeezing my heart . So I had a conversation with him and I requested him not to ignore my presence as its affecting me very badly. so he agreed to it we had a DEAL that he will not ignore my presents but neither will I talk to him nor will he talk to me . but whenever we see each other or pass by he'll just give a smile that's it. I had tagged this whole affecting thing because of his ignorance as due to emotional attachment but sometimes I feel is it just an emotional attachment or is it something more do I feel something more   guys I'm dying out of confusion someone help me solve this out and clear my confusion

Confusion

Sad 
I and my boyfriend are in a long-distance relationship for like 1 and half years. Now I feel like I want a break or breakup. His parents are very strict and they don't give any privacy us. Even though they knew about our relationship they don't respect our relationship. I have talked about this a lot of time to him. But he is saying adjust for some period. We have been in a relationship for like 9 years and long-distance is ruining our bond. And i hate his parents for ruining our love life. 

Long Distance Relationship

I miss him. He makes me feels better when I'm around him. I thought that we had something special. I guess I was wrong. He choose her. I am not good enough for him. When we're together it makes me feel fulfilled. Like there's nothing else in this world. Now he knows that i still love him. When I looks at him it feels real. I want him to feel the same. But that will never happen. He was a part of my small world. I don't want him in any other way. When I looks into his eyes there is nothing. I am more sure abt I miss him. But he don't even miss me. He wants her. I was the only one in his relationship with me, he never was. He don't want me anymore The day I stopped doing Efforts, that relationship also ended....🥀

Breakup

The never initiated conversation... 
So it goes like...  We've been in the same school, same class and never talked.. So 13 years in the school... Just being aware of the fact that he exists.. Also we shared birthdays... Might have wished e/o at times.. Nothing more than that... I had never felt anything like that for any guy... 2 years ago we made a mere eye contact... And damn it I haven't ever been able to forget that... Idk it felt like something so unusual... He literally made every other guy unattractive... Since 2 years I haven't been able to get over him... He's on insta though... But what's the point of following when it will again get paused as a mere acquaintance... Idk what it was but i feel some connection with him... Like I ain't able to make decisions... Keep thinking him... Mind you I was a bright student and so is he... But i haven't been able to focus on anything lately... I genuinely want him to do well in whatever he wants..  I wish the best for him... He's in my prayers... Idk what is this... As soon as I try to distract my mind from him it just intensifies... In between I heard about him getting into a relationship... I felt bad... But why so?... I must focus on my studies.. Also I m trying so hard... But every other day that thought pops out..  I m preparing for an exam so no way of social interaction... Stay in a room and just doing nothing... I feel lifeless... My career would end if I do not study... But no f*in thing is getting to my nerves... I should be studying like anything rn but here I am doing something completely non relevant... But i need to do something about this... Please give honest suggestions keeping your self in my place... I don't want to hear 'go and study' 'forget it ' and all... Coz I ain't able to that's why I am writing it here... 

Career

I'm 29..
Want to marry the love of my life. He's a great guy, but he's busy all the time.. a workaholic.
My parents like the guy, but can't get over the face that he's sindhi and I'm marwari.

He loves me back too.. Mann bhar ke.
But, I just feel alone sometime..
And don't know what to do 🥺

Love

I am in a relationship. I have told my parents about it. I am 28 and soon turning 29. My partner loves me and is very nice but he wants to pursue his career first and then get married. My parents want me to get married asap. Also he hasn't told at his home about me. His family knows that I am just a friend. I can't force him to marry me. He wants to marry me after he has achieved things in life. And on the other hand my parents are after my life to know if he has informed at his home or not. And if not, they want me to move on and look further. 

Social Anxiety

I need suggestions
Actually I don't know how to frame my sentence here, I am going through a tough phase in my professional life, I am getting harassed by my manager and I can't leave my job due to my family financial situation, I want to apply for transfer but that is not possible at this moment and  i am trying to find a new job but in this economy that is also not easy.
So this situation has been very hard on me and this makes me cry or rant to my bf on a daily basis, and now is getting frustrated with my daily ranting or crying because he is saying I am not taking action and always crying about things . And him not being there with me emotionally during this phase is making me feel very anxious because he starts ignoring my calls becz of this, i don't know what to do in this situation , is it expecting him to be with me in this time is wrong??


Relationships

My boyfriend’s best friend is a girl. She’s also my ex, we dated for like… two-three weeks? They’re really close, I get that. They’re best friends after all. But sometimes they’re too close. When me and the girl were dating, our friends saw him with his arm around her or like… whispering in her ear. I thought one of my friends was just saying that to randomly throw me off, but everyone else in our group agreed they’ve seen it too. He would always quickly remove his arm or move away from her whenever I entered the room. Now me and the boy are dating and everything is going well… but sometimes when they’re together, they get close, extremely close. I won’t know where he is sometimes and he’ll just come from the stairwell or classroom at school with her and they’re playing some type of tag game that requires them to sort of hold each other.
He doesn’t hold my hand in public for long. He’ll hold me, hug me, even kiss me in public, but for some reason, he won’t hold my hand. Especially when she’s around. He’ll actually forcibly and quickly move his hand from mine when she walks over.
Things between me and him are going great. I really love him and he’s always finding ways to tell or show me he loves me. But when she’s around, he’ll change sometimes. She’s a very beautiful girl, everyone in school thinks so. She’s quiet and nice, too. But she doesn’t hang out with a lot of people. Maybe I’m just insecure, but this for some reason is bothering me so much and I don’t know what to do. Is this normal behavior? I’ve only ever been in a commited relationship once before and he didn’t act any differently around any friends. Maybe it’s just my current boyfriend’s personality?

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