I relapsed. I broke no contact from him. It had been four months. I texted him through an app that didn’t use my phone number because he blocked me everywhere. He blocked me because there is a restraining order protecting me from him.
A lot of things have happened since we started talking but one of them has been the thought of lifting the restraining order. Why do I feel like I need to talk to him? He did hurt me and I was scared but he was addicted back then. There’s no way he has fully recovered. What am I doing?
He keeps saying that I’m selfish because i want him to talk to me. I’m selfish because he’s risking jail time and coughing up more money to his attorney. So what does he get in return he asks? What is something he can get that will prove to him I won’t fuck him over and make him feel like he can be selfish too.
This probably makes no sense but I have no idea what am I am doing or why I am doing it.
Try to stop contacting him
hi…i had somewhat similair situations in my past. i have been through the same
its all because you love him no matter what. but he is avoiding…or there is no love from the other side. engaage in other hobbies, stop contacting him…move on with your life…coz you have got only one. experience new things ,meet new people . dont make him your world , im sure there are plenty of things to focus on. love yourself no matter wht.i know its just comment. but its from my experience
No you’re right. I’ve completely lost interest in everything that makes me happy and all I do is look forward to talking to him. How long did it take you to feel like you were starting to heal
