I really want to harm myself right now. There’s no end to this misery. Why does, always, my faith get tested in everything I believe in?
Is it my fault that I care way too much about my career and future? I just want the best to happen, but somehow that’s way out of reach. I feel sick and tired. I feel frustrated. I feel…numb. Kind of. I want to harm myself. I don’t know what’s holding me back. Maybe it’s fear. The fear of what others will think of me (gosh 😔) .
I’ve had enough. Just enough. I hate it. I hate myself, my decisions, my life and me as a person.
You have all the time in the world to do this but before you do anything, why don’t we start with what is the true reason you are thinking of doing this. Isn’t it better if you tell what is distressing you so much. Come on bud talk, you can call me even!
I wanted to study abroad but turns out I don’t have the adequate pre-requisite requirements, so I guess, what I have worked for is now falling down into pieces. I just feel so stupid and disappointed. I am somehow keeping from ending it all
Same boat my friend. But I still have hopes that I can do something. I have a gre score which as per few people is good. Just few weeks I’ve been rejected by a good school as well. I’m sure yours is not a total lost case. Let me know how you have planned things now
Funny how life likes to suffer people who actually want to do something. I know how you feel, I really do. The brain treats rejection as equivalent to physical pain and it’s horrible that one has to go through that. What world have we made, where self-worth is depicted by a mark sheet and intelligence is graded by which school you get into and how many marks have you scored. The truth, I’m just as sad as you are, and honestly speaking, life never gives a situation according to what we plan. I feel that just from the fact you are actually serious and want to do something in the future is a good thing.
Thanks bud. Just a bit unsure and slight lesser hopeful about future but nonetheless trying to keep an optimal mind. Wish you the same. Just take one foot ahead of the other.
