I never trust a playboy
But they love me
So I fly him all around the world
And I let them think they saved me
They never see it comin'
What I do next
This is how the world works
You gotta leave before you get left

I can feel the flameₛₛₛ on my skin
He says, "Don't throw away a good thing"
But if he drops my name, then I owe him nothin'
And if he spends my change, then he had it comin'

They say I did something bad
Then why's it feel so good?
They say I did something baÐ
But why's it feel so good?
Most fun I ever had



Aditya Sahu

Nirala on his way

Music

I don't understand why my boyfriend wants me to be with a bunch of guys who are all naked when I don't like it. He says it's not just about sex but the feeling to be powerful. I really don't understand him. Last night he got mad coz I asked him the same thing if he wants to be with a bunch of girls and said yes but just to peek on them. This is too much to me. He even say bad things to me. And it hurts coz for almost 3 yrs. of being with him I felt like I'm being used.

Heyy guys!! I am new here btw so are mostly of you struggling from their mental health?? If yes nd you want someone to share your thoughts with you can share with me becoz i have also gone through these 

Anxiety

Tujhe meri yaadein kyun nehi aati by dino James hits you home every time you hear it. Even when you have moved on, you don't remember the person. The song just brings you glimpses of those days when you were struggling to move on. Sending love and strength to all the people who are feeling hurt today. It's okay guys, we are all together in this 

Love

I have seen you....seen you in my dream
When you look at me...I due scream 😁

Crush

Got into a relationship after 4 long years, hoping this would be different. But guess my luck. It didnt end well. I am fine i guess. We dated for 2 whole months. The second month he changed a lot. We never talked except sending those good morning and good night texts. I tried calling him but never picked up his phone. He used to text only at midnight and i would have slept by then waiting for him. I check my notifications every minute hoping he would have replied to my text. So i wont miss tha7t tgwo minutes to talk to him. Eventually i thought it was all because of me. I wasnt enough. Stopped looking in the mirror as my reflection made me puke. My anxiety worsened and started taking medication. Told him what i was feeling. He did.nothing about it, it was just the same. I did not want to be in a relationship where there was no basic conversation. My mental health is important. So i asked him if we could breakup. He said, *if thats what you want lets breakup. I know i dont call or text you, i am kind of sad*. He knew everything still he chose not to do anything. Thought if i had to give him a chance.. But glad i didnt. He contacted me recently asking if i wanted to have sex he could contact me.  We know whom to stay away from girls. 

Boyfriend

Warangal ninchi avar ana unara.. ? 

Conflict

so i met this guy at the workplace few weeks back. I kinda had a crush on him and out of the blue he asked me out. We went out got to know each other a bit. It was nice. But then we used to text each other.
He is really busy but still he takes out some time from his work which i appreciate.
His juniors told me that he is a nice guy and is a gentleman which even i felt so.
Yesterday we again hung out. We went on a drive and then to his place. I was quite awkward and he was trying to comfort me. He was being gentle and loving.

He was moving forward but i asked him to stop as i was confused if it’s right or not and wants to take things slow.
He was okay. But deep down i felt if it pissed him off? He didn’t say anything though.
And i’m not that type if girl who just randomly hooks up wt any random person. It takes time to get close to someone before forming a connection. Somewhat like being demisexual.

And the thing was idk what he thinks of he. Am i just a random girl for him? or he actually likes me and take thing forward. It’s really confusing. Idk while spending time with him we both were so silent. I’m an introvert person but he isn’t. Idk why he was silent all the while. He asked me if i reached home or not. But he didn’t texted anything. And nothing today as well. i want it to be something. Because if that’s casual then i might hurt myself by being the only one who’s attached. He once said at the beginning that he could do anything for the girl who he is interested in. He thinks that i might leave the city in next 2-3 months for further studies so maybe…I don’t know…is he doibg it all casual? It has been frustrating to go on with his unsure acts and mix signals. it’s really making me feel heavy. I did have a good time but at the same time i’m not sure if it was right? Like i have been in a relationship before but it turned out to be toxic. I never ever got anyone who cared for me, being gentle with me. I have been treated really bad at childhood. So idk i guess it’s still deep inside me. I see my friends around me having good relationships and having caring boyfriends. Which i never had in all these years. I always ghost people beforehand assuming that they will hurt me. But this time out of my comfort zone, i tried to connect wt him and since someone said he is really a good person, i thought of giving it a chance. i did texted him yesterday but he was out for dinner. Later he texted me that it might take a while and asked me to take good rest and sleep. Idk when i fell asleep. it’s really making me feel heavy. I did have a good time but at the same time i’m not sure if it was right? I hope he doesn’t start ghosting me now. 

3am Thoughts

I'm fine...I'm fine....I'm fine......Am I really fine?......Or do I say it so i don't have to explain why I'm not ok......I'm not Freaking Fine......Happy now?......I'm not fine......I hate myself.....

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