I needed to say  a lot but at the end it remains unsaid. I fear that if I start I may never stop screaming 

Now&Me

Anonymous 

Adulting

Some point in everyone's life, there will be a moment when you feel there isn't a single place on earth where u actually belong !!
Have u guys feel that!?

Hope

From the last 2 years some bad things happened to me like health issues, work related, break up . But every time when bad happens to me i was strong to face that but nowadays some kind of fear just set up in my mind that some bad things will happen.that bothers me very much. 

Anxiety

I feeling depressed and empty. Just want to feel ok again

I am tired of feeling like this

ocd keeps telling me I am not a good person

I am tired of this

Depression

Ever heard of blessings in disguise? If you did, then are you worrying now? We are here to live our tiny lives not stressing over things we can't control...

Love

[an update no one asked for]
I finished the task that made me feel so anxious and overwhelmed. I feel happy and productive :) ~

Productivity

I am 19 and my family wont let go of me.

I struggle so much with depression and .. ideation. Especially during the pandemic since just when i was starting to be okay with myself, everything changed. There was so much change. Therapy is too expensive for me so i cant do it consistently. Recently ive tried to be brave and go back to school after a 2 year break. Ive been trying to go back to art too. Ive been focusing on taking care of myself but recently ive been realizing all this is futile if i have no hold of my own life. I knew something is seriously wrong with me and how i view myself bc when i finally made some art after such a long time, i liked it a lot, then when i tried to make another thing literally right after, i couldnt bring myself to finish it. Its literally a sketch right next to a finished pieced. My hand was shaking and there was a voice at the back of my head telling me i am not an artist, i cant draw, im not a real creator, even if i made a really good piece literally just minutes ago. It was right in front of me. Ive been creating even during my whole hiatus yet i still view myself like this. I knew i needed change. Change of pace, change of environment. But i cant have that without my family's approval, without independence. 

Ive been trying to gradually ease their minds into the idea of letting me commute, at least teaching me how to so that i hhav more options than theyre giving me. But they cant let me go, especially my dad. I think hes struggling with this a lot. But its killing me so much, i cant do anything. I am so stuck. They arent prioritizing this because they dont take it seriously enough. I feel llik i am only living for them at this point. Ive tried everything i could do for myself within the house, but i need change and ive needed this for a while now. What should i do? 

3am Thoughts

Depression 

I want to go out... I want to hang out... locking myself into the house... suffocating for me

I don't know why bt i just can't get over some stupid things that has nothing to do with my life... in my entire life i have never been that much emotionally vulnerable... not even in my relationship... I got irritated... easily become harsh... don't like doing anything... just playing lazy... doing social media...

I just loose myself... I can't find myself... this is not me... I can't recognize myself... plz someone hold me back... this is not me... feel like nobody give a fuck about it... nobody actually care what i have been through.. going through.. even if I try to explain someone they don't listen... even if they listen they don't accommodate...

I don't know any more what to do... badly wanna know  what i want... can anyday possible someone going to find me....

I feel unfamiliar with my own family...sometimes feel like they don't give a fuck either... 

I hate myself... this much toxicity i have been going through in me myself have never imagined 

I'm constantly stuck between wanting to do whatever i want because who even cares, yolo and not doing anything because log kya kahenge. 

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