I miss my toxic ex very bad

Boyfriend

Are you friends with your ex?

Breakup

It's been 2 years but I still miss my ex so badly 😭 !!!

My boyfriend needs at least 3 years time to settle his career and my family wants to get me married as soon as possible. I've not told about him in my family but they've a hint that I'm in a relationship. My guy doesn't want to talk to his family about me until he is settled financially. I'm stucked in a very unpleasant situation. 

Anxiety

Why let him in my thoughts hurt? I have had a crush on this guy for the past 9 months....He had a pretty bad breakup and he isn't looking for any relationship....But on the other hand I fell from him so hard, he is just the way I always thought of one for me...I can't let him go of my mind...And he is pretty much close to his best friend, who is in love with him....I barely talk to him....I tried various things to move on...but he is my classmate, every time I see him I just fall for him....His charm is something that gets me on cloud nine....but things are hurting me now...I should stop my feelings for him...I have to stop my obsession for him....He did mock me 1 or 2 in front of everyone....but again I am gonna cherish him my whole life....He was the one who taught me what the butterflies in the stomach mean, to believe in love....Ya letting him go is one of the worst and best decisions I can make for myself....I don't wanna be selfish and just think about myself...I just don't know what to do.....

Crush

My boyfriend’s best friend is a girl. She’s also my ex, we dated for like… two-three weeks? They’re really close, I get that. They’re best friends after all. But sometimes they’re too close. When me and the girl were dating, our friends saw him with his arm around her or like… whispering in her ear. I thought one of my friends was just saying that to randomly throw me off, but everyone else in our group agreed they’ve seen it too. He would always quickly remove his arm or move away from her whenever I entered the room. Now me and the boy are dating and everything is going well… but sometimes when they’re together, they get close, extremely close. I won’t know where he is sometimes and he’ll just come from the stairwell or classroom at school with her and they’re playing some type of tag game that requires them to sort of hold each other.
He doesn’t hold my hand in public for long. He’ll hold me, hug me, even kiss me in public, but for some reason, he won’t hold my hand. Especially when she’s around. He’ll actually forcibly and quickly move his hand from mine when she walks over.
Things between me and him are going great. I really love him and he’s always finding ways to tell or show me he loves me. But when she’s around, he’ll change sometimes. She’s a very beautiful girl, everyone in school thinks so. She’s quiet and nice, too. But she doesn’t hang out with a lot of people. Maybe I’m just insecure, but this for some reason is bothering me so much and I don’t know what to do. Is this normal behavior? I’ve only ever been in a commited relationship once before and he didn’t act any differently around any friends. Maybe it’s just my current boyfriend’s personality?

Do guys miss their ex girlfriend after break up? I really don't understand why my boyfriend never tried to contact me after the breakup. I didn't want to leave him, but It's okay.. I don't wanna force him into a relationship as well.. All I wish is that if I could ever know how he feels, does he miss me?
Does he remember all the moments that we spent together during our college days, those bunk days, those canteen moments, everything... Does he think of me? Was I a burden to him?
I never knew it's so easy to forget a person like this.. We broke up for almost a month now.. in lockdown.. but everytime I see the pictures.. I cry.. I wish I could read his heart and his feelings for me.

There’s this guy I like; we work together at same cafe (where we met), we’ve both said we like each other but he doesn’t want to feel too overwhelmed with emotion so basically friends w/ benefits….. we both have anxiety & tbh connect well & we actively try to stay communicative… He’s kissed me before…I don’t know if i should fight for him???

Having been raised in a small town, things like dating and romance were not exactly encouraged and so I refrained myself a lot. I still fell for someone in high school but he didn't feel the same way, he approached me later on but I had already moved on. Later on, I fell for a colleague and this guy isn't ready for relationships and we are still best friends. And most recently, I met someone over arranged marriage set up and it was the same story all over again with the additional complexity of this guy being a total asshole. Also, I fell for him quite fast and I had a lot of trouble understanding this and couldn't express it to him early on - I guess love is actually blind. Having said this, I've been approached by a few but I didn't feel the same way about them. Only now, I have realized that I should be more open to exploring this side of me. I am seeing this guy now in an arranged marriage setup but I am not sure how I feel about him because I don't know if I am over the last guy yet (It has only been a month since he ghosted me). This new guy is really nice but I'm having trouble collecting my emotions as I am a very sensitive and sentimental sort of person. Should I be open about what I have been through to the new guy? Also, how can we fall for someone so fast? It still worries me and I have a lot of trouble processing and understanding all these emotions. 

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