Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I miss my ex boyfriend. I don’t know what to do. It’s been a year since I saw him and I am the one who broke up with him because of all the family stress. But I miss him now, he was also wrong at places because he wasn’t ready to understand me, took me for granted and was behaving like a child rather than understanding when I told him that I need some headspace because there’s a lot of stress that I am into. Things got ugly, we talked back we broke up again, it continued like this.
But now when I remember everything it doesn’t matter, I miss many things about him but I don’t know if it is worth it. I just miss him I don’t know what to do.
Will talking back to him be a good idea, will I look too desperate and I am doubtful he will start doing the same things again because he never bothers to contact me now also.
I don’t which situation I am in rn but I just want to talk with him once, it was all very immature whatever happened.
Par mujhe aisa lagta nahi ki wo samjhega because till now he never contacted me if I don’t initiate anything, it was like that in the relationship also. Although his friends hyped a lot how good of a person he is and how good he is as a boyfriend, but idk, something was not right and I don’t know if I am being over needy but I just need some things which he never did. Is it good to be there with a person just because he is very nice and treats you good but you don’t feel that something, you don’t get that what you need emotionally and mentally. Is it fair to that person? Yehi sab dimag me chal raha tha ek saal pehle and I called it off. Not in a bad way, I took time to explain him all of my emotions but he just didn’t understand, he doesn’t get me.
I just miss him rn because he behaved very good with me and treated me good unlike my family which has always abandoned me emotionally ever since I remember even as a child.

I just need someone to talk about all this because none of my friends will understand this