I miss how normal my life used to be before my father passed away

there is no replacement for your loss . but this is how life goes ...it will never be same but  please collect yourself again and stand up once more i know your knees are weak right now but be ready for upcoming challenges and you have enough strength with you..
#GBU buddy

3am Thoughts

i really miss my mom so bad 

Loss

Lost my father to corona, today.

miss you dad forever ♾️

Life

Please please help me.
Tigger Warning- Cancer, Loss of a loved one.
My best friend's(N) mom, let's name her M, has terminal cancer(to the point where doctors have said no to chemo because it would be of no avail) and neither N nor M know about it. Her father and my mother are the ones that know and I overheard my mum one day so now I am also one of the few people who know.
The point is, the father suggests not telling anyone till Aunty passes but I personally think if N knows, she would spend more of the remaining time she has with her mum and would not feel guilty or sad when she passes as she will be mentally prepared.
N and I have been friends for the past 11 years and even though I know her better than most people, I obviously don't know her better than her own parents. So I get why uncle does not want to tell her but I cannot keep it, if I were in her position I would've wanted her to tell me.
My guilty conscience is killing me from the inside, knowing that my aunt will pass away soon and my friend will not be the same ever again.
What should I do in this case? Should I tell her or just let it be? Any advice would be helpful.

Cancer

rest in peace grandma 

i dreamt of my grandfather dying while i was sleeping on a bus. he died 4 years later due to pneumonia. i cried for very long when we first witnessed the severity of his dementia. he suffered in agony due to his multiple illnesses. every morning he would moan in pain from his broken back. i cried so much that i didn't cry at all when he died. in fact I was happy that his suffering had ended. i was the only one in the family who saw his death liberating. i was glad he was in peace once again. people think i am an asshole for not crying in his funeral but i did cry, just not that day. i cried for years before that and i had no tears left to cry. nowadays i keep thinking about him and that gives me immense nostalgia. i miss my grandpa. 

Family

just found out my grandpa has lung🥺 what do i do now... i’m losing myself:(

Love

I'm a 26yo guy. My mother was suffering from cancer and died in 2019. Since then, I lost something which I couldn't get back again. My brother, father everyone was broken as they didn't saw it was coming. Because, I was with her all time and they didn't knew much about her condition until the disease caught her more stronger. They were so sensitive to handle it in front of my mother. I couldn't tell them what's going on. I handled it for 4 years, going to the hospital,taking care of her etc.. 
 But, what I had was a friend whom keep calling me everyday and gave me support which I needed the most.

Guys, that's the only reason I stood firmly before my family. If I am broken, I might not be able to get back my family out of depression. Even, I remember the day she died when a single tear didn't came out of my eyes.

You know what's the worst thing could happen when you are sad? Its you can't cry your heart out. I couldn't. And, I had to keep it all inside me. I became so anxious, depressed and demotivated to survive.

My small or rather big advice to you : cry as you can you want. Share your thoughts with atleast one guy you can trust. Don't keep everything inside you. Don't let the sadness turns to madness.

(Pardon my language)

Thanks 

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