I met thiy guy who i have been friends for a long time. He has told me about what he feels for me but nonetheless, I tell him that there are better options. He should try looking out for other girls. Yesterday when I met him I knew that I really really like him. Still not sure of my feelings but i can't afford to lose him. But, deep down I feel i dont deserve happiness. I am so wrecked. 

That's what u think maybe that's not true... N as I said everyone deserves to be happy so do u... N if u feel u r hurting him ask him straight away he's ur friend n maybe u can look forward a beautiful relationship with him... Try it babe u will be fine just believe urself ❤️

Sooo trueeeeee! Pata nahi mein esa kyun karti huu🥲

I knoww. Yeh dimaag chalne mein kaafi der kar deta hai. Sab kuch haath se nikaal gaya abh sochke faida nahi. Mene bass accept karke move on kar liaa aur kyaa

Heyy come on... Everyone deserves happiness... If u r into him just tell him... That's it... Be happy mann❤️

I feel that i am really toxic. I stay sad, i don't feel i deserve happiness and low key i feel that i might ruin his happy go lucky persona too. 

Adulting

What if I never get over him?

3am Thoughts

I love him, He unaware about it. I am unemployed and I thought I will build my career and then I will propose him. In 2020 I get post graduated and due to corona I am stiil unemployed.  Today I got call from him that he is going to meet a girl for marriage(arrange meeting by his parents). 
when I listened this my heart stop for a second and my eyes wet. but still i managed to talk to him and said "Great, when you are going to meet her". and he said tomorrow.
I have decided that I am not going to tell him that I love him and Maybe he not intersted in me and also I affraid to tell him that I love him.
He deserve better girl than me and I dont want to ruin his life being unemployed and dependent on other. I have decided that first I will get a job and focus on my life only.
aage ka aage dekha jayega!! 
I wanted to share this things to someone and  ended here.😌😣☹️

Hustle

I like someone outside of my caste pretty sure he too likes me but we aren't dating aren't just frnds then he said if i can dste someone else of my caste... i said sure u can but now only ik how broke and painful it is feeling... wish guys could give one thing that is loyalty but loyalty is very rare nowadays

Boyfriend

I'm in my first relationship. He's very sweet n cute. It's been 1.5 months and we got physical. But i said no to s** we are just making out but everytime we meet we move atleast 1 step ahead. Everytime I tell him to stop and take this relationship slow, he agrees but start pouting then I agree somehow and now it feels like he's manipulating me. Today i said no to him becoz of some reason, firstly he was upset and i told him I didn't like this behaviour of him n i wasn't talking to him ... he was trying to calm me down and started crying. He said i make him feel like creap, womanizer etc. I said to him no it's not like that, I'm not comfortable rn. And then we moved one more step ahead but I'm feeling we are moving forward so fast,... I'm also feeling like he's trying to manipulate me i don't know for sure but it's feeling like that.

Relationships

What will it take for someone who claims to love u to see your pain....that you are dying slowly...n each passing second you are quiet on outside bug your imside is screaming in pain n asking foe help...actually begging...everyday...its not a big scam like cheating...but being lonely...all the time...you are dying slowly...n its not happening because of habit....it happens with everything small that he does.....he never cared...he never will i am just a comfortable relationship to be safe for him....if i tell him it wull mot affect...he will simply aay i am making an excuse for breakup..


Disability

My ex-boyfriend texts me sometimes. He is in another state and he called me video. He asked me when I plan to go to the gym and train my butt, ( he likes bigger ones) and I did not like this question and I said to him that I dont like this question and to stop asking me about this. Two days later he texted me and asked me again when I am going to the gym and that was the moment I posted him the middle finger smile on his message because from my point of view he is trying to make me feel bad. And after that he send me a voice message and told me to fiuck off because I send to him the middle finger smile and that I am naive , and to go and take a look at my self in the mirror because I have a flatass and he is being honest with me and called me a very bad word and after that I told him that he is a faggoot( not me- I called him back the same word he called me first) and he said as a reply that I am a lost sluut. After that I texted him and explained that my worth is not determined by the size of myass and that I prefer to train my brains more and he said to fiuck off, that I dont appreciate his honesty that I have a flatass and I have to work out it in the gym minimum one year . I said that to go and date someone with a bigass ( I mean big butt)  and leave me alone, and when he will make a difference he will understand what is important. And his reply was : what difference, are you stupid? The difference between a flatass ( I mean flat butt) and a bigass ( a Big butt) is a big difference ( that was his reply. Please, may you share with me your honest opinion about this situation . Is he trying to help me , but got mad because I posted him the middle finger ? Are his words justified or his behavior is bad? Please, I would really appreciate🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏P. S ( after this conversation I deleted my skype and I dont know if I should log in to see what he was texting more or no)

I feel like my happiness started depending upon how he treats me these days.
He is never available for things I said I would love to have .
He says he have some kinda emergency or something or something.
I understand once twice thrice
How understanding i can stay when I started feeling bad
I can't even confront anything anymore cause when I did he didn't take those seriously.
I love him but these days i feel like I'm just imposing myself when I have to say something.

I broke up with my boyfriend 3+ months ago.. I still sometimes talk to him. But whenever I do, I don't feel good. I don't want to be a bad person. He's also kind of struggling with the breakup. I don't know what to do. Adding to that, I have a very important exam in 3 months. I am mostly working towards it, however this breakup is causing me troubles in focusing. :(
I wish I could tell someone everything about what happened.. but I don't want to talk bad about him because he wasn't a bad person. It's just that many of his actions in the past still hurts me. Some days I am clueless. Some days I feel like I did the right thing breaking up. At least I don't have to disturb myself or jeopardize my career because of relationship. Umm.. I still don't want him to be hurt so much or hopeful at all that I'd come back one day. I also want to focus on studies better. I already am kind of doing better than before but I need improvements. I don't know what I am writing even with teary eyes (I just talked to him idk why).

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