Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I met a girl on tik tok i was almost 17 and she was 17, we started texting and she said she would like to text with me, so we did! We both were introverts so we were like big supports to each other, we made safe place, but with time i started to feel something for her, but never told because i was scared to ruin our friendship, we had so much in common, like crazy much!but then on Valentine i told her how i felt about her that i have feelings, and my goodnight love you, was real i love you? She said no, that her ily’s were as friend, but she said it was good and that she wont cut me off cuz of that! And at 16 she had 18b-day till then it was fine, but last Wednesday she told that she wont text me, i said why, and because she didn’t gave any reason i asked if that isn’t bit disgusting to leave me like this here? And she misunderstood me, and thought that i called Her disgusting! And said that suddenly she dont cares and i can call whatever i want her,that i have to live with it! But i cant its been few days im losing myself because she meant everything to me, i have multiple accounts and nonestoply trying to contact her asking if we could talk things over, but she is online and Blocking me, and blocking me, but i emotionally can deal with it, im too weak and breaking donw in tears at school, because i want to text her but even few minutes is too much asked after all we had