i live with my mum and my 4 years elder brother and my dad was never really in the picture. My mum and him have an understanding of sorting through stuff and easily getting over cause hes a chill easy going personality. I, on the other hand have a problem letting things go but have this " wanna be bad bitch" personality lol and since im the youngest, in my whole family including cousins, im always perceived as dumb or unknown to the real world. my mum and i recently have no been able to click and she sends my brother to talk to me for the smallest arguments and i just left out cause they present a united front and make mee look like the bad guy every single time. I love my best-friend i really do, but recently she’s involved in her work with one of my other good friends and i just dont feel like i can open up cause i end up oversharing and she doesnt reciprocate. I literally have these 2 friends and so when they also present a united front, i just feel so lonely and alone and im just so sick and tired of being the young idiot who they think know nothing about the real world, which obviously isnt true.
I think each one of us should stop searching internet for all our problems. It has nasty answers for everything. Teaches us reasoning for every act of stupidity we perform. We are all attention seekers. Our mind just does that, which seeks us attention. Very rarely are we in real sorrow. Like losing a loved ones. Not achieving something in spite of giving your 100% etc. All the other issues we should be able to deal. Y r we teaching our minds to be slaves to the negativity around us and justifying our mistakes. Why r we expecting the world to be perfect when we surely know we are also imperfect to somebody. Take control of your mind. It is ok if they love your brother more. He is just your brother. Don’t judge their actions. Your parents are also humans who are inexperienced in certain aspects. Accept them. See the way the universe will reciprocate to you when you do that. Be a giver. U will realise how much your family loves you. If u only look into the flaws, never will u be able to see their love. These are all small and negligible issues in life. With internet and too much searching for every problem we are becoming complaint boxes and losing ability to see positivity in others. We are only thinking of what we need. And not at all getting satisfied. Ur heart knows what is right and what is insane. Just gain strength to do what is right and what will gain you atmost respect and help you win everyone. Our mind is a miracle. Once you feed it u can. It can do anything. Feed it with positivity, sacrificing nature, be a giver, expect less and trust me everything comes to you. Do it at least for your own family. And teach the same for our society. All the best for a positive future that u r going to work on.
