I know this girl and she is older than me and we close because she also an international student at school. at first we are close but I feel nothing but these day we kinda feel uncomfort abt each other. we joke but understand that it is kinda sarcasm. she kinda always think that she is right. I know sometimes I'm not good but she is that kind of girl that always think she is right and sometimes ostentatious

School

**Let's talk about you this time**
*Lets talk about how hard it is to open up to someone about being sad for no reason . Lets talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason . Lets talk about how hard it is to understand why you're having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home . Lets talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why*
- Unknown

Mental Wellbeing

I met a guy in a dating app, he was the one who liked me in frst place then I initiated our conversation nd his reply always has been in one or two word... We even have exchanged our wp number nd there also I'm the one who take initiatives but one day he sent a meme which he shouldn't so i told him not to. After tht incident we stopped talking nd yesterday all of a sudden he sent me his pic.... Nd it's not the frst tym he is sending his photo but lost if the tym he did even when I didn't asked hi to send. So please tell me is he into me ?? If he is then he is jst waiting for me take every fucking step? 

Confusion

Anyone watched Dune ? 

Movies

Why do I feel guilty and bad after walking away from a bad relationship? 

Memories

Been feeling a lot down since last night. Had a pretty bad fight with one of my closest friends. I didn't even wanna tell her what i was feeling because i knew that we would end up fighting, i even told her but she said i promise we won't fight but in the end we did. It's a second bad fight in as many weeks. Whenever i express my emotions and feelings we end up fighting. She said i purposely do this to hurt her even though i literally told her to let it be, but she forced me into starting the topic.
Our relationship is fractured big time now and i never thought I'd have to see this day because loved her and did everything for her. 

I wish that I have someone in my life like me, who listens to others without judgement and takes care of them unconditionally


3am Thoughts

I just wanna say 11 years ago Iron Man rocked my world. I was right there with dad when a revolution began, and true this is hardly the end of the avengers But it does feel a lot like it. I don’t remember a lot of school but I do remember marvel being a part of it. I don’t remember a lot of dates where I didn’t talk about MCU. I don’t see myself at SDCC cosplaying as Starlord or Loki in Hall H, row B anymore. It is pretty much over for me tbh. No more Tony and no more Natasha. It is the end of an era and what a great time I’ve had; Living one marvel movie to the next. Someday, somewhere a young girl who doesn’t quite yet understand sexism or gender inequality, (or maybe she lives in an ideal world that doesn’t have those constructs) will find solace in this Fantasy world again. She’ll find heroes and ships that she loves. I hope Lee’s legacy continues forever.

Relationships

whoever you are if you're reading this i want to say something to you;
Everything will be alright, you're one special existence, you're loved even if you don't think so there's always someone out there to love you, darkness doesn't last forever. If you've been struggling for a long time it's possible that soon all the happiness you've never had will come to you. It was maybe not ur time yet but trust me everyone has time for everything and your time to be happy will come as well. It's never to let for anything as long as ur still breathing, hold on a little bit longer, it's almost over trust me. Don't feel bad if you can't do all you want to , if you feel like ur wasting ur time, if people think you aren't ever trying I know you're trying really hard, you really are it's just that effort isn't something that can always be seen. Sometimes you try really hard internally to do something but you never get to do it but that's still effort and you deserve credits for that as well, sometimes we try just to get through the day and that's still effort, I'm proud of you for being alive because you didn't stop walking even when the pain was killing you, you fought your demons and you might still be in that fight. You're so strong for doing that, just take ur time nobody can know what you have gone through as much as you do, only you know ur pain so don't let people tell you what you should do, or how you should feel. It's okay, you're doing well. Take ur time to go at your own pace, no one will blame you. Do what you need to heal and be happy it's okay if one day you feel like doing nothing or if you feel like that for months even years, it's okay cuz you aren't doing nothing ur fighting inside, even if others cant see it. It's okay to be a bit selfish as well, put yourself first and do what makes you happy, it's not your responsibility to make others happy even if you want to so don't feel guilty if you can't. I love you I love you with all my heart, I want to hug you and tell you that it will be fine, I want to take ur pain and cry with you, I'm proud of you, I belive in you. I hope ur okay💕

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