I keep having this recurring feeling of worthlessness… and it comes out of nowhere like I will be out having a good time and something will trigger a negative response so bad that I am immediately pulled in this never ending feeling of being unworthy, that people keep me in their life just for the sake of it, I am not good enough for anything and I don’t deserve to be loved. Because if the constant fear of people eventually abandoning me one day, I feel like just leaving everyone and going somewhere far away. I have had suicidal thoughts in the past but I have made myself stronger than before. N for a decent amount of time I thought it was over. But there it was again yesterday when those negative emotions came rushing back all of a sudden making me feel like I am drowning into this never ending hole of self hate.
Siddiq @allthosewhowandera...
Are you running from something? Coz if you are you will have to face it, and if that’s not the case, go spend some time with your mom, we often tend to not the amount of love we have due to them, but I want you to go and spend a whole day with them, you’ll realise how much you matter to them, hoe your their life revolves around you. And you will realise that for them you are worth more than their own lives, because they love you. Find love in your life is what I mean to say and others love will show you how high your worth is.you don’t need a degree or looks to make you feel worth it. ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE. And this reply is a proof of how there are still people who will love you
Thank you so much for your response. I can’t express in words how much I appreciate it. But the root of me feeling unworthy is years of unhealthy parenting having a father who made me believe that I was an absolute good for nothing person and I can never do anything right in life. He has said things to me that I have scarred me for life because he has went far to say that giving birth to me was a mistake. When I confronted him about how it hurt me, he said it was anger and I shouldn’t take him seriously. That actually hurt me even more, because how can a father say something like that to his child just out of anger and then expect me to forget about it like it was nothing. Throughout my developing years, I was constantly scolded and hit for everything I did against his will. And in all this, my mom always supported my father… so trust me, parents are the last people I want to spend my time with to understand my worth.
I know they love me, I am not denying it. And I know my mom was only supporting my dad because he is her husband but deep down she felt for me. But being with them only reminds me of all those traumatic events and that is the last thing that I want
dont expect any stranger to love u . dont u love urself ? u should love urself enough to not expect or need anyone elses’ love . treat urself , be ur own bestfrnd and hold ur own hand that whenever life takes u somewhere u will be there to pick ur own self up .
I try hard to love myself… but from a very young age it was engraved on my brain that m good for nothing and that I cannot do anything right. I think that has led me to be too hard on myself always and never be satisfied with the progress I make. I always feel like I don’t deserve the happiness or that everyone stays with me out of pity and not because they care for me. It might not be true, but I feel that way and I don’t know what to do about it.
create boundaries and not let anyone come and v=break them . so that ppl wont get the power to hurt u or leave u and even if they leave u wont be hurt . only trust ppl who gains them no matter how ahrd it gets for them to earn becoz even u have had enough of someone elses; bullshit . stay , take a pause and see the beauty that resides within u . explore ur hobbies . do wat makes urslef happy no matter if it makes sense or not . if u wanna do , just do it . coz this world will judge u no matter wat u do . then isnt it worth doing happy things and getting judged ?
Yes. I have been trying to do that. Keeping busy helps. And for quite some time now I was doing okay. But I don’t know why just 2-3 days back I have started having these negative thoughts and I keep spiraling
yaa that happens when i had was suffering from a breakup.even at that tym i had gone through the same things but its ok . look when any natural calamities occur doesnt everything change after that on earth ?
isnt our heart home to our souls ? and just relate leaving of ppl to those natural calamities so ofc things will go to normal . okay now here evrytym u get those feelings again just keep ur hand on ur heart , close ur eyes and slowly whisper to mind I AM A GOOD SOUL I HAVE DOEN ENOUGH FOR PPL AND NOW I AM MORE STRONGER .
look we cant force ppl to stay in our life so , instead of thinking that ppl used me and left me , u can think that u were their ray of hope when they were in darkness . maybe in their life u were just a person to come like and angel and help them fix their problems and trust me this happens . and its not ur fault that u took them for a permanent ppl . thats okay everyone in this world is going through this . u just have to look a new and a positive perspective for ur problems . when u offer ur soul to nature . it does preserves it like true treasure . dont worry . leave those ppl behind coz u were only to help them . but u still have urself to help urself . see ur inner bestfrnd is way more needy than this world.
it need u like hell so fucus on the things which makes ur inner one feel safe and appreciated . and yaa do help ppl but dont get attached . have boundaries . never open ur heart for ppl who arent permanent . wait . see if they take efforts . its ok not trust quickly rather than getting hurt . and ending up alone .
once u start helping the inner person it will definitelyt help u to help ither souls and after ur job is done u can leave
ok tell me one thing isnt it good thing to be someone’s helping hand ?
doesnt it mean that u r strong to take ur resposibilities as well as others ?
dont u feel grt by being there when no ones there to help them ?
and only one advice IF U HAVE ANY PROBLEMS 1ST TURN TOWARDS GOD , TALK TO HIM FIRST , RUN TOWARDS HIM , ASK HIM WHAT SHOULD U DO . see i am not saying that u shouldnt ask help from ppl .
u should and yes u can but GOD knows ur future things and ofc those unheard convos with ppl so he will guide u way more better than ppl . idk if this helped but this is wat i do ? and i felt it would be worth sharing with u😊😇
I can’t thank you enough for taking out time from your day to write such a big paragraph for a complete stranger… I will surely keep these things in mind and I would like to let u know that it’s because of people like that the world is still a better place
thank you so much . i really love to help ppl 😊
