I just want to open up now , I’ve bottled up this for so many years now that I’ve been sexually abused by my dad at home and by two boys at school . My parents never taught me how to differentiate what is good touch and what is a bad touch . My dad abused me and I didn’t know what was happening with me ... i was abused by a boy in class 2 nd that other boy in class 3rd ... they touch me on my legs and then try to go inside my skirt i tried to stop them but i  was so scared to tell anyone so i was ashamed of what’s happenin With me , that time I didn’t know what to tell to my parents . I’m going to turn 20 now but i still have dreams where my dad is haunting me 😭 i just don’t know what to do . I have live with that man in the same house with a happy face i just want to forgot allll of thisss😭i just want to forgottttttty thisss .. sometimes i cry myself to sleep coz when where my dad comes in my dreams these things came all back in my mind as if it all happened yesterday only . Sometime tell me what should do 😭please tell me pleasee ..

Thanks for your concern . We can talk here

It feels so frustrating because you can’t do anything now you can’t talk about it you can do nothing .... I’ve tried to heal but this thing just never leaves me 

I’ve tried to make myself forgot about all of this , coz my dad pretends as if nothing ever happened.... it’s been 5 years or more since it all stoped but now also it haunts me day n night

I know it’s gonna sound weird but it was really comforting to know that some people out there won’t judge me and just wanted to help me out . Thankyou so much for your help 

It’s easy to say but I’m still gonna give it a try for my peace 

Child Abuse

when I was 5 or 6 years old I was sexually assaulted by my cousin brother it left me with a lot of trauma I did confess to my parents after 15 years but they dint believe me and said boys are like that maybe they dint do it wantedly and my father believed him over me it fuckes me up every time my parents talk to him or help him and he still behaves like a fucking pervert around me I avoid situations where I can meet them but it so traumatizing it ruined my life forever about the choices I make with men or my love life, low self-esteem, extreme anxiety it ruined my childhood for me i was not safe at my own house i felt like sharing this today because my dad was helping him to get a match to get married i questioned him after everything you are helping him he gaslighted me saying I'm the bad person and I lie because why would someone remember things when they are 6 years old??? and I have to stay out of it because he has good nature to help others and I don't. sometimes I feel like the only person we go to comfort is our parents but when they fuckup I guess it's just you alone with yourself.

Hi, I'm new here and my English is not that good. Uhm for today I would like to share what happen. A little background, my friend introduce me to her cousin but not personally. It is more like we have talked through chats and nothing more. It is fun knowing that even though he is introvert (just what my friend says) he is still replying to my chats and do some of the things I asked him to do it. Until today, my friend and her cousin went to their family gathering and somehow they talked about me. On their way home, my friend told me that his cousin's mom wanted her son to have a girlfriend already and my friend said that she already introduced him to someone which is me. Also, my friend have shown some my pictures which is I totally disagree because I am conscious with what I look. Later my friend have message me and said that she don't like me to be attached to her cousin because she don't want me to get hurt and knowing her cousin it seems like her cousin is still not into relationship and I think he is really not into me which I already knew but it somehow hurts, thinking that I am not that special for him. 

Crush

I  now have a job n im staying with my aunt n uncle things are better between us now

Other

Three years ago, me and my family were coming back to home through a train. The train was very crowded. An old man touched me innappropriately, but I didn’t responded thinking that it was my missconception. He again touched me and that time i was sure that something was wrong about him. Third time,he did the same. Being a 12 yr girl I just slapped him and he was like, why did u slapped me,what did i do? Even knowing what he did. But u know the heart breaking thing was that, my own aunt told me to shut up my mouth. At that time, i should have been encouraged and praised for showing bravery but i was crying all the way long. My aunt told everyone that she didnt got a seat that’s y she is crying…till now this no one knows except me and aunt…And it is somewhere inside hurting me badly…I m sharing this becuase i want everyone want to know that keeping quiet is not the solution…fight for it.

Harassment

Sometimes you just crave someone's touch sm. 

3am Thoughts

I had been raped two times in childhood I m a teenager now. I don't have the guts to speak about it to anyone. I have very strict useless parents who are terrible... I CANNOT EVEN THINK OF SHARING IT TO THEM..🙃 bruh I'm living with it here. That painn those thoughts kill me from within...

P.S : 😊 I think of ending up don't hve the guts to.... It's horrible

Now adays i think im gonna blow up
You see i am have been sexually harassed by u guise the partner of my aunt who lives next door to us my mom has always been busy and not there it started when i was 8 i was alone and he was drunk and suddenly told me that he will teach me how to kiss so he... Kissed me hahaha and told me to open my mouth i ran downstairs with my aunt and didn't say a thing cause i was 8 that time no one taught me anything about that and so he continued to do so even in my high school day he would let me sit on his lap and what saddened me was that it always happened INFRONT of my aunt and she will do NOTHING and discomfort is always visible in my face but still smiling as i was a coward who cant fight and he would touch my hip and touch it and touch it hahahahaha im going crazy remembering it and one time i woke up in the night and i always sleep downwards (my chest facing the bed as i have bad experience in that too also sexually harassed by the previous boyfriend of my mother where he will touch my b**bs when i sleep when i was young guess he was jealous not having one) so back to it i woke up him on top of me his TINY ASS PEEPEE(still in pants) on the top of my ass and he was kissing me on the checks or i dunno AHAHAHAHHA typing this wants me to go next door and maybe m*rd*r him hahahahahaha help me hahahaha im going crazy and ontop of that no one knows these exept me and unto this day he pretends he has never done that dunno maybe perks of being a pedo hahahaha i dunno what to do so i came here hoping for some advise

Depression

What is the point of sexual assault awareness month?

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