I just want to find an outlet to release my buried feelings. I noticed in my late teens I tend to shut off my surroundings and make myself detach from most of the things in life, numb… and just move on.
I’m exhausted crying in front of the computer as I listen to my family’s argument. I’m exhausted stopping all the knives that my mother holds. I’m exhausted hearing of my father’s lies and verbal abuse… his insensitivity. I’m exhausted of their irrationality. I’m exhausted from seeing the two people I love, fight and kill each other with words, hurt each other physically. I’m exhausted thinking of the financial problems we have. I’m exhausted from feeling uncertainty. I’m exhausted from feeling helpless. I’m exhausted from this deadly cycle.
I hope things will get better for you and your family, and I want to thank you for sharing because reading your post made me realize that I need to stop arguing with my partner around our child I could imagine how she feel she might feel the same way thank you.
Sending you love and support. I can’t even imagine what you are going through right now. Stay strong my friend. You must. God will help you.
