Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I just understand that my parents do not understand me. I used to share all my feelings and thoughts with them because I don’t have friends to share with.
I think I made a mistake at that point only. I thought sharing with my parents will be nice and they don’t doubt me. but I have done a huge mistake there only. I don’t have any other choice to do. If I haven’t shared my thoughts and kept myself it makes it more stressful for me and makes me heavy inside my head and causes headaches that were unbearable. I can’t even know where the pain started?
so I started to say my parents at starting they used to listen…only listen… and left about the topic but after that, at a point, there were used the topics what I said to them and started picking or poking on me and talking in a mean or harsh manner. which was hurting me inside very hard.
I thought I don’t have friends so I choose my parents in their place. Is that a mistake I have done? I care for them and I respect them but they don’t.
and again I started to keep my emotions, my feelings, my thoughts inside me. I thought I can manage but I can’t even anymore. I feel like some beating on my head. I can’t even say where it was hurting also. I even don’t know which stage of emotion or feeling I was staying in. I don’t know what to do. How can I severe also.