I just confessed to someone that I can’t be with last week. We can’t be together because of our different religions. He didn’t say he has the same feeling at first, but eventually, we become kinda like a couple with no status and he said he loves me.
But now I feel a bit insecure. I know I shouldn’t feel like this but I am.
He still in love with his first love. They didn’t end up together because his first love is still pursuing her career so she is not available. I don’t know what is her feelings towards him.
He also said that we will be together only until our graduates day which is around 6 months from now.
I know I shouldn’t dream about us together because, in fact, we can’t. I know I shouldn’t have high hopes for him to love me. I feel like I’m just a side girl for him. He said to just focus on the present, but I still feel uneasy.
He treats me nicely and I fell in deeper every day. I’m afraid I fell too deep that I can’t let him go when the times come. I want him to love me only, but I know I shouldn’t hope for it. I want to love him with ease, but this is painful for me…