Iā¦ I donāt know Itās been A year my family since I talked with my familyā¦ I talk to my brother daily he is down syndrome and I love spending time with himā¦ He love me and I have A boyfriend who is really under standingā¦ I share everything with himā¦ He has been with me at my best and at my worstā¦ I honestly judge him A little for choosing someone like me ā¦ Someone their own family didnāt chooseā¦ But I love himā¦ My brother and him are the only two people I am alive forā¦ I tried ending my life because everything sucksā¦ But I couldnātā¦ I am coward I guessā¦ I told my best friend everything I was going through and she thought I was too messed up so she also leftā¦ Canāt blame her though my own mother donāt care if I am alive so why should anyone elseā¦ The one person who is supposed to love youā¦to care for you and to be with you just be with you no matter whatā¦ Well she donāt care so why should anyone elseā¦
I tryā¦ I really tryy. So hardā¦ I discussed everything with my family my sister mother father they thought I was seeking Attention and sympathyā¦ I am not assuming they told meā¦ I hate themā¦ Except that I donāt ā¦ Who can hate their familyā¦ But I ā¦ Itās just too hardā¦ I canāt sleepā¦ When I doā¦ I donāt want to wake upā¦ Itās too damn hardā¦ Everythingā¦ And I justā¦ I want things to be Betterā¦ Or to endā¦ I am tiredā¦ To deal with these thingsā¦ Family is supposed to be there for youā¦ To be your everythingā¦ How long can you last without your family?
Turtle @turtle09
Im sorry to hear about all the things you are going through right now.
But I am also happy that you got your cute brother and your boyfriend on your side.
Family can be tough at times. Im sorry that you dint speak to them for a year.
I can only advice you to stay stronger at times like these. There is a pandemic going on, there must be so many things going on in your life.
Just relax for a bit. Slow down and if you feel like making that first call to your parents make it if you are ready.
They need time too right. They might have their own beliefs and values. They will understand one day.
If you are not ready yet its okay take your time.
Make new friends if you could.
Make sure to get time for yourself.
Be kind to yourself.
Its not gonna be easy but you have to do it for yourself.
Take care š
Hi my dear
Thank you so much for opening upā¦
You are not a coward
Infact you are so very strongā¦
Your life is so very very precious.
Infact u are so blessed u have two ppl who support n love u ā¦
U have to live for them
U cannot give up
They donot deserve this from u
After being so supportive
After investing so much of their time n emotions on u
They deserve atleast ur presence in their life
Donot punish them
N urselfā¦
It is a tough phase
But remember this too shall pass
N you have emotional support
N once u give up in life
U can never get back ur lifeā¦
You deserve to live ur life to fullestā¦
Yes what u are going through is very painful
But ending life isnot the solution
Keep facing it like a brave warrior
U can do it
You will do it
You know u will actually have to start living for urself now
Follow ur heart
Fulfill ur dreams
Follow creative pursuitsā¦
God bless youā¦
More power,light n strength to uā¦
