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@jay695

I honestly have no idea what I’m doing on here… I guess I needed someone to talk to and it’s not like I can talk with family or friends. Basically there was this guy (when is there not lol) and we worked together for a few months. We would sometimes talk but I wasn’t in the same department as him at the time. When I transferred to his department we got to know each other more and he asked for my number. We got closer and a lot of our coworkers assumed we were dating (which made me really happy!) I’m a year older than him so I was already in college by the time we started talking. The thing is he had to leave for school and to make things worse he never told me he was quitting or even said goodbye…I just never saw him again. It hurt because he completely ghosted me at first and I just kinda let it go. Then a few months later I started thinking about him and I called him. We started talking again and I remember why I liked him so much. We didn’t talk as much because he was so busy with school and football but I assumed that he at least tried to make time for me. Everything was going good until we stopped talking…no calls or texts…nothing. I gave up atp I was so mad that I decided not to waste my time with the asshole anymore! A couple of months later he texted me “hey”… that was it! But because I’m such an idiot I texted him back and we talked a little more. Talking to him made me realize how much I missed him and his hugs (every time I saw him at work he’d always give me a hug and then he’r get mad if I left without giving him one) Anyways as we got back to talking I told him that all he had to do was text me at least once a day. I understood how busy he could be and I didn’t wanna be a burden but it wouldn’t have hurt to send at least on text. The thing is he is a TERRIBLE texted but he kept his word and sent a text at least once every day…it lasted 2 weeks and we haven’t talked in 2 months. He never even called to tell me happy birthday… now I’m laying here and it’s 1am and all I can think about is him. I know what your thinking and I’ve already deleted his number and everything but somehow I still keep thinking about him! (What sucks even more is that I memorized his insta username so I tend to check every now and then when I think of him. I know it’s weird!) Anyways I’m on here because I’ve never been in love… my whole life I’ve been humiliated or rejected by guys and then I meet…and I miss him so much! I miss his hugs and the nickname that he came up with for me that only he could call me…I just wanna know…am I in love or is this just some stupid crush that I can’t seem to get over? Or maybe I just need closure? I don’t know….if your reading this please lmk cuz I’m really lost and sad without him…

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heyo @fighter453

You’re just lonely

@jay695

Yea ik and that only makes the situation worse lol

@visalini

hey hi. i M visalini. i am going thru the same shit now. i memorised even his number. i call repeatedly he though he has blocked me now.

@visalini

i exactly know how u feel

@jay695

That really sucks…he never blocked me but it just feels like he forgot about me you know?

@visalini

ya i get it.

@visalini

my best advice leave him, dont go for another guy. try to improvise urself. spend more time with frnds. if u have none, find a grp. u can contact me anytime. i am luking for a frnd also. and very much willing to help u out

@jay695

I’ll keep that in mind thank you. I recently moved away for college so I don’t know anyone here and I’m feeling even more alone than usual…

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Aditya Lavate @aditya1306

First of all i wanna say learn how to love urself
And second thing that ik is no one is soo busy that he cant even text u once a day
So if he texts u after a month again know that if u reply him u r dumb
Loving someone isnt a bad thing going out of ur comfortzone and waiting for him thinking about him isnt bad too
But everything is good if u do it in a limit
For example : alcohol, when u drink socially its not a bad thing
But when ur liver gets too damaged u have to stop drinking
Cause uk thats not good for u at all now
Same goes with ur scenario its time to think about urself more than anyone else

@jay695

Seriously thank you for the advice…I know deep down that I need to work on myself before I even attempt at a relationship. I’m pretty socially awkward so I’m always alone and when I see these couples together I feel even more lonely and I think about him…idk what it is…I mean he turned out like every other guy, wanting sex in the end but we never were I intimate in that way.

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Aditya Lavate @aditya1306

U don’t need to date someone right now
First get healed recover from the scars he left u with
And dont worry u wont be alone from now on ill make sure to reply whenever u post something over here

I cant gurantee u that ill be here to celebrate ur victories

But yeah when u r going through a rough patch and share it over here ull surely see my comment over there

And all i know is u deserve better u dont have to imporve urself u just have to think more about urself than others and dont worry ull get at a point of time u will get someone who will really love u

@jay695

Thank you this helped me a lot. I know I need to just focus on myself rn…a small part of me just kinda wants closure though you know?

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Aditya Lavate @aditya1306

Yeah i know about the closure thing
I was dying for that too when my 3 years relationship broke

But believe me dear thats not worth it

U deserve alot better

Everyone deserves the best and im sure u do too

@jay695

Thank you❤️

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Aditya Lavate @aditya1306

Dont mention it💕

@virendra07

@jay695. I can understand how you feel.I think he is your 1st crush ,love whatever we name it and so you are deeply hurt .and trust me we all at somepoint go through the same .Dont worry time will heal everything .Once the time passes you will fell much better .Till then enjoy your life have fun .Have faith in god and believe that someone better is made for you 😊.I hope it helps

@jay695

I wouldn’t say he’s my first crush. I’ve had my share of high school crushes but I never had the courage to say anything…I think he’s just the first person I’ve had real feeling for and it sucks that he basically forgot about me…

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