I havenβt slept yet. I donβt even know what Iβm doing here. Iβm in college. Iβm three hours from home and I have no one to talk to seriously. I have no motivation whatsoever. Thereβs nothing driving me. Like, I did it mum, are you proud of me? Now what do I do? Do I become a doctor like what you wanted me to do or do I pursue a career in art that will me down to a life of mediocrity? Will I end up just another average person lost in time and just another number? What do I want in life? I donβt even know. Iβm not even living for myself anymore. I am merely existing.