I haven’t been able to sleep at night.
Every time I close my eyes, I see her and miss her. And it’s difficult to digest the fact that her and I won’t be together again.
I can’t eat. Anything I eat comes out because of all the anxiety.
All of this has also been affecting my work a lot.
Last night I really wanted to pick up the blade and end everything.
Hey hey wait please don’t even think of suicide it’s not worth I know you feel like doing it everyday but you have to be strong you have your whole life and family someone will love you more than her don’t do because one person left many more are with you rn
Your feelings are valid. I know things feel hard and seem hard, but I can guarantee there are people in your life that love and care for you so deeply. Life is so much more than pain and it might not be great now, but you living your life to the best will get you there. You are loved, you are cared about. There are ways to help get you to where you need to be. Please reach out for help, please fight your way through this. You are important and you are here for a reason.
niti agti @aragni
somethings are not meant to be, that doesnt mean life is also not meant to be.
when i was at the same square, one of my friends he said, chal mai help karta hu marne me. socha hai ma pa , mera saare dosto ka, family ka, etc etc. after few days people will just forget you. but if u live, and survive this situation, u will be seen brave and strong. its not about what people will think, its about how u will think about urself. later after few years u will laugh that how stupid u were to give up life.
one person is important. and that is you. she will not be there, agreed. you are here right now. and life has soooo much to offer.
and about eating, eat in small portions. ek saath mat khao. and when u feel anxious, punch a pillow or sueeze it. it helps. when u sleep dont think about her, think about your next step of life. when u wake up, say to ursefl that i can and will do this.
lots of strength.
Nothing is going my way. I’m always punished for a the smallest things I do, never praised for the good things I do. I’m still… I don’t know how to put it in words but me and my best friend got into some things, we never talked again after the argument. Now all I’ve got is a few fake friends and toxic parents. After that day I have never been able to walk in public or anywhere without thinking about what others think of me or any random worries I have.
