Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I have to get this off my chest. So for the past year or more, I’ve been in love with a guy I’ve never met. He’s a musician who is not yet world famous. Anyway, these feelings are growing stronger day by day. And no, this isn’t like some celebrity crush, this is more. He knows my name, we’ve talked a few times on his livestream chats, which is where we mainly know each other from. And there’s a few DMs. Maybe this is a celebrity crush? But these feelings are eating me away slowly, killing me. So much so where it feels like we could be soulmates? This may sound obsessive, but it’s not, I promise. Anyway, there are a few strange things that make me believe this. One, I have no clue when I knew who he was or where he even came from. Two, before I began to have a crush on him I felt very emotionally connected to his songs (which are very deep, lemme tell you) and his experiences he shared with us. Three, there have been a few times where I’ve been close to meeting him. Four, when I remade my social media account after it was hacked, I was somehow following him again and I don’t remember how. These could all be coincidences, I know, maybe I’m reading into this too much… But there’s something telling me that I’m not over looking this. Am I crazy? How do I feel less shitty? How am I not able to push away my true soulmate (if he’s not it) if I’m so in love with him and he happens to not like me back? I have this gut feeling that we’re gonna meet soon and it’s driving me crazy. Believe it or not, I’m hesitant about it. I don’t know if I wanna meet him, because the worst might happen… Help me, please.