I have rage issues. I feel pathetic in my own house. My family gets on my nerves so much. I love them and couldn’t do without them, but right now I just need to stay away from them. They bring out the worst in me. Otherwise I’m a very calm person. They keep disappointing me even after communicate to them about how much they’ve hurt me. Gaslighting me, every single time. And I feel like I’m very misunderstood in my own house. They think I’m selfish but they don’t know what I do for them. I just don’t like going around and boasting about it. I have so much trauma from the past because of their abusive parental methods that even though they’re not like that anymore, I find myself projecting hate towards them now. I just need to get out, have my own freedom without them having to question everything.
I also think I need anxiety pills to calm me down sometimes. And there are times when I have these thoughts, where I want to resort to drugs or alcohol.
I suffer from the same problem and that’s y ended up here. My parents and elder brother make my life miserable everyday. I feel like running away from home.
