I have kind of mixed feelings today,
Yesterday had a fight with bf. I want to be calm just because I want everything to be smooth again. But I’m observing things. You may call it my overthinking, but I feel like he actually doesn’t care about me much. He forgets about me whole day, he doesn’t care if I cry or didn’t had dinner, he just don’t care. Sometimes I feel to go far away from him. But the thing is I can’t live without him. And realising these hurts me alot. He asks me to trust him, HOW ??? I do everything possible to make him happy even when he’s bored. When I say him the exact thing, somehow fight starts. Yesterday we had a fight, We didn’t had dinner, he literally ordered for himself and ate whole thing like a monster. He isn’t even bothered if I’m hungry or anything.
This happened multiple times. I’ve never did like this with him. It hurts. Sometimes I feel like to leave him like nothing ever happened or to break his computer and his upcoming scooty. I just can’t live without him. I’m still confused, is it worth. It’s been 3 years. There are lots of moments too. I still don’t understand whats in his mind. It’s hard to live like this everyday, sometimes I feel like to die, I know no one will be bothered much, as I don’t have any friends. My bf would be the happiest one, he would have words to talk with his so called friends. He would get his desirable chick. Just the parents thought strike me. I just wish this fear to go away, I will end fucking everything and go far far away from everyone who hurt me.
Hey there i hope you are doing well and i know what you are going through I can’t explain the solution here in text if you really want to get rid of this you can call me on my phone 9131460164 a genuine person who might help you :)
Have a good day sweet girl
Hii i hope you are okay. I would suggest that you should Definitely talk to your partner about things that bother you. And tell him to sit down calmly and listen. And he can say anything he wants but make sure to be honest. Both of you. And be prepared to be a hurt a lil because things might get harsh. This will surely clear some things up. Then take a decision what you wanna do and don’t think what will people say. You parents want your happiness more than anything. So be strong I’m here for you. ♥️
