I have friends but i feel they don't give me the same priority i give them  and I'm tired of making new friends. I'm just confused to the point that i don't understand. 
Am i doing anything wrong that they don't consider me or I'm just a narcissistic person 


It helps to limit your efforts if it hurts you when your expectations aren't met, ideally you should only do as much, that you don't expect anything in return. 

3am Thoughts

Fake friends only reach out when they need something

Friends

Being the mature friend amongst the lot really affected my mental state as everyone around me forgot that I am a person too and of the same age,everyone expects me to be the mature one even when it hurts me. At times I see my other friends being stupid and impulsive and everyone let's them off the hook because they are "sensitive", "vulnerable" and "immature". I wish people tried to see me in a more humane way.

Relationships

Thinking of my love everytime before sleep. 
Creating fictional stories .


 Is it just me or do you also  think that sometimes when putting alot of effort for your friends and not getting the same effort back makes you  feel weird?  Like I've never been friends with someone who actually was the  first one to text me or give surprises, gifts etc. I always doubt them that is this a sign that they don't make efforts for me?  I mean I understand that sometimes they don't get time to text first and stuff but..  It feels kinda weird to be always the first one to text, do stuff for them etc. :( 
IDk what to say about this but sometimes,  sometimes I kinda wish I had a friend like me '-' 
One time I decided to not text anyone first for a day and the next day I had 0 new messages. It's not like I need their attention 24/7 but knowing  that someone actually cares for you really means alot. I'm in search for many friends as possible to make my life worth living so if you wanna friends just tell me your snap chat if you have it  in the comments :> my snap chat is : @mithi.martolia 
I hope I'll become friends with some amazing people on this site byeeee!!  Have a great day🌸 

Is it weird if i am surrounded with people and don't have anyone to rely on ,like the moment I'll say I don't have friends they have to act like they give a shit about me that's not fair they say i am the one who gives  negative vibes but what when they just turned their backss and now I have major trust issues .. I need friends but don't know who shld I trust.


Anxiety

I can't anymore😭 why are they coming back at the same time that everything got fucked up, and the worst is that it's not because of me that they came back, it's because of her who is ruining my life by pleasure and I don't even know why we're still friend, why am I still friend with people that I don't trust at all? why am I still friend with the same persons that ruined my life and still is, why is my loneliness affecting me so much that I'm going back to them just to ruin everything again

Life

I have always been the person who doesn’t share much with the people around me and this wasn’t a comment on who I was surrounded by but who I am as a person. But, recently, I have started seeing what sharing reaps through people around me. The way they have formed deep strong connections and I don’t have any because of the lack of my ability to share. I feel like that train is long gone now because of age and the fact that deeper friendships require the investment of time. 

Am I seeing this in the wrong light? What are your thoughts on missing out on friendship in life? 

At the start of my senior college we were a pack of friends but 1 thing led to another and everyone moved apart so did I but in that grp these 2 girls i got super close with but as I said everyone moved away they 2 also lacked communication so they don't really talk with each other.
Now the problem is they don't really like that i share the things with both of them they don't say me but sometimes there words and actions show that, they both really care for me and they take a stand whenever I needed them but i don't know what to do now 🙂.
I really don't know how to explain my situation.

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