I have dysthymia and no support living alone doing some work feeling helpless

hello
thank you for sharing 
i hope you feel better 
can you any reason that's making you feel that way?

it's tough. I know. But you're strong, you're a fighter. I have faith in you. anything i can do to help?

Mental Illness

I'm just fed up yr I'm comfortable my zone. 

Addiction

I feel impatient at times. What do I do about it?

Mental Wellbeing

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Friends

My ex called me today. She found out someone was watching through her bathroom window while taking a shower. My blood is boiling I want to smash that guy but I am not in town. Pretty sure the guy lives in the same building.
Please suggest what should she do? She’s really depressed and crying.

Confusion

Climate Change

What should I do ? In this situation.... I am feeling very helpless and controlling my anger. I've been used by my boss. Likewise, I worked part-time for 3 years after college hours. The boss managed to get enough of his work done. I've done all the work selflessly for the company and firm. I never did for my fame and name. Apart from my skills and abilities, I started understanding people.
Everything is okay until I was working as part-time and student in that company.
In the above scenario, I never asked for penny or regular payments for my work. I managed to get around 25k in cash and objects in those three years span (that too not for myself, it was all spent in needs not in luxury). 
Though, he has done so many favors over me and helped me in my academics as well. I always respect for that.
Second thing - 
After completing my graduation, boss started me sending works and asking me to get done. I've done those managing my other time and gave my best. Also managed to complete his personal assignments and work.
He calls me for work and pretends caring as a personal. Later on puts me into work.
Tell me, am I doing anything wrong by expecting some amount or fees in return.
I am spending my skills, my time, my electricity and resources, after doing all this I am not getting in return. 

Am I doing wrong ? 
I was promised 3 days ago he'll pay me an amount for work I've done. He didn't even manage to send those and prior to the day when I asked for money and my fees, he called me every evening for work outputs and files. Now I'm waiting and asked him 2 days ago to send me amount. He said he'll do that day itself and gave reason of technical error of Online Payments. 

I didn't ask him again for money and I have a fake belief, he'll send me money some or other day.
Now I feel like begging and get ashamed for messaging for my money ( work done by me ) 
What should I do ? 
How to control anger when in needed the money most ? 
I feel slapping someone and also feel to self harm because of this fraud kind of with me and mixed emotions and mood swings are killing me from inside. 
I've hit my table hard, broke my spare mobile phone and shouted harsh on my 4-year-old nephew.
Please help me to move on from this situation 

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