I have come to stay at my mami’s house in another city as I was having multiple breakdowns… and here life is difficult…it’s too hot, no extra room and my sister cousin is so snooty and full of attitude. She is 9 yrs younger to me but behaves 10-15 elder. She pretends as it she knows everything and no! She is snooty and wrong half the times
I am going back to Delhi and my pg on Tuesday and I am so scared… having to face the reality of grieving the family I wish I had…my narcissism filled parents. They are so abusive and big time narcissistic I feel suicidal.(in thoughts…that I can’t bear the pain) .it’s not even funny.
Today before sleeping around (I slept got an hour Nd then woke up) I had a fight with my bf too.
The anxiety I had almost healed, found its way back to me today… where I’m worrying n anxious abt everything including my operated tooth if it’ll be fine.
I will take therapy n healing too…but this seems endless
I feel hopeless. Weird. Agitated
