I have been low and carry alott of negative thoughts in my mind
I totally have no guts to end myself
But then everyday I pray and wish life ends , and that I am exhausted and done now
I had been in a relationship for four years with a partner who seem to be very promising and for him i fought my parents, i stood back didnt shift wuth my family
Stayed alone survived two years of Independency just because i knew i had a future waiting and eventually things will get fine
But nothing did parents went more far i count that mentally far and partner left me because his parent didnt accept our relation
I struggled so much and today even when i was at a peak of my career due to my performance , my job is also at stake.
I mentally need a break
But if i dont have a job i cant pay my rents or survive here
And that leads me to a path to the parents who have mentally given up on me
I really dont understand what to do
Or how to cope up with this
I am not able to be strong and take wise decision anymore
And have lost the ability to survive life
Hi lovely human being. You sound like you are going through a lot and it may feel like the tunnel is never ending but bad times will end and there’s a light awaiting for you at the other end. You cannot force anyone in your life to stay with you. The man must have been a huge part of your life and he is not. But understand that he was not the best companion for a dtomg minded individual like you who was willing to fight against all odds for love and he was not. YOU DESERVE BETTER! This may be a blessing in disguise and I hope and pray that you find someone who is worth your affection. Secondly, work towards mending your relationship with your parents if they are not toxic. If they are good human beings an hinest relationship them will do wonders for your mental health. Lastly, see how you can improve your current occupation situation. What are the other alternatives that you have? See if it is possible for you to move to another city or perhaps with your parents for a while. If none of that works and you continue struggling with your job try taking a day off along with the weekend and going to a new place to clear you head or maybe meeting an old friend or watching a movie. It’s important to unwind! Untill then take care and know that you are valued and loved. ♥️
