I have been going through a lot of mental and physical harassment on an everyday basis by my best friend, who stays with me. My parents stay in a different state and we are based in another state. He is just my best friend, not my boyfriend. I don’t even have a boyfriend. But he blames me, accuses me for no reason, threatens me and hurts me physically.
Since last two months I am going through depression and he is angry about that. I cook and do all the household work all alone and pay the rent which is 30,000 INR monthly, from my parents’ money and even though he is working at an MNC, he doesn’t even share the rent. He always tells me everyone would be better off if I died. I asked him if he is so unhappy staying with me, why doesn’t he go home or take a place of his own. But he refuses to leave me alone. He also lies to my parents about me and whenever they try to reason with him, he takes his anger out on me. When I met him, a little over three years ago, he was suffering from severe depression after a breakup. And I befriended him because I genuinely wanted to help him. I didn’t know at the time that he has anger issues, OCD and borderline personality disorder. He knows he has these problems but refuses to go to a doctor or counsellor and instead takes out all his anger on me. Since last three days, I am severely depressed and he is going on blaming me, telling me that I should go and die. My parents are also tired of hearing our repeated arguments and sometimes he makes them believe that I am the one at fault.
Now I don’t have anyone with whom I can talk to, because, apart from my parents, he doesn’t allow me to talk to anyone. And my parents are not able to help me much because they believe him.
I have always been a survivor, but now I just can’t keep going any longer. I have no self respect left, no where to go, no one to understand me. I am so suicidal, I honestly wish I could die this very minute.