Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

i have been feeling depressed for a long time now, maybe more than a year now. ive had suicidal tendencies more than I would like. I know I should talk about it to someone, but my parents are in another country. they’re already breaking their bones to pay for mine and my siblings’ expenses that I can’t find in me to tell them about this. I don’t want to burden them even more than I have. I know I have great friends who are willing to listen to what I have to say but I have absolutely no privacy here as I’m staying at my uncle’s house. I don’t want them to listen which would give them more burden. they’re already taking care of me and my younger siblings along with their family which I’m sure they’re not very glad about…
I just wish I could talk to someone without worrying about the consequences.