Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I have anger issues i wish i didn’t but… I’ve been living with my family for last 22 years. Never had any long term friends, was bullied in school and was very shitty to people who actually wanted to be my friends. Very strict parents who take decisions for my life. I am in a college that i don’t attend just appear in exam oh and i am a Lesbian. My parents aren’t fond of me they have my older brother to compare me with. IITian now doing MBA from a prestigious college… Ughh. My mother never forgets to remind me how big of a burden i am (as if i didn’t already know) have tried ending my life several times but not brave enough. I wish i was brave tho. I’ve made it my personal goal to remind myself everyday that good things are going to happen and i got this. But its been hard lately.