I hate the feeling when nothing is wrong but nothing feels good to 

3am Thoughts

I hate that "what if" feeling.

Life

Feeling down , I hate OCD it’s the worst 

Hopeless. Drowning. Only if someone could hear me out. 

Social Anxiety

I just want to end it all
I want to give up

Suicidal Ideation

do you think it’ll ever get better ???

I have always been that person who was know to be cold and heartless, someone who has no feelings and especially romantic ones. I was the girl who would break the hearts of the guys I was involved with (I did not mean to do that but, I cannot force myself to love someone) 
I spent a very long time like that. Until one day, I searched about aromantism, and I thought I was aromantic. However, this week, some weird things have been happening to me. I was getting lonelier every day. I longed for a particular person and that particular person was not even special. I just liked their presence around me. I know that my feelings are difficult to decipher and for 20 years I have never felt something like this. Now, I am afraid of loneliness,  afraid of not seeing that person but I don't want to see them. Even my body is rejecting these  strange feelings, my heart is beating fast and I feel depressed, I sleep a lot and I don't want to eat anything because I am nauseous. Deep inside, I think I know what I am feeling. Yet, I keep rejecting it because the person I am thinking about may be toxic to my independence , my self confidence and my perception of things. I am a strong independent woman, and I surely don't need any kind of feelings to stand between me and success, what should I do? 

One Sided Love

I just want to end this I am so done with everything and everyone 

Depression

Hey! I don’t know how this is gonna help me or if this is gonna help me..but surely it’s worth a try. Past few years have been rough, and I haven’t had a good sleep now for almost a decade. It feels like I’m living a nightmare when I’m awake and when I’m asleep the nightmares get worse. I  can’t talk to anyone about this because for them I’m probably the happiest and chirpy girl around and whenever I tried telling about my feelings to someone..they made me feel like I’m too much. I’ve tried ending it all in the past few times but somehow failed in that too (that’s for good, I guess) I don’t want to end my life but I also got no good reason to stay. It’s just kinda difficult to go through things alone without having even basic interaction with anyone 

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