I hate people who don’t appreciate things. They constantly tell you what “right” to do. When has abuse become the right thing to do? Gaslighter? Manipulator? I was following as many as possible orders you keep ordering around.
The friction between us will never be fixed. I am not someone you can control because you want what you want to be followed. I didn’t regret a single thing when I rebel to be freed from your grasp. I was even thankful I did that. Because if I follow what you said, I might have long slit my throat out of depression. When will your toxic mentality be right?
I don’t follow the old man’s advice. Why would I use a technique to soothe what you feel? Let’s be direct with each other. We’ve been direct since I was 12.
Although I hate you, I’ve been finding ways to satisfy your needs. I hate you. I’m tired of being the Blacksheep in this family. I’m not your favorite that’s why you don’t care about using me as a human investment and abuse me.
When did you actually consider my feeling? Whenever I express my thoughts, you’ll keep saying “You’re wrong”, “You don’t know how to use a technique”, “You’re inconsiderate”, and all. But you keep on forcing me to speak why I am like this. Are you all dumb? DUMB?
(I’m not a spoiled child. I never ask for anything to be bought for me. I’ve never even said I’m fcking sick. I’ve never asked for their attention. I’ve been abused because I asked to treat me a bit better, like a child from them.)
