shruz @shruisdumb
i hate my life i hate everything about it but idk what can i do about it
I feel like i am going through the exact same thing. My happiness depends on other, my well being depends on other. And the saddes part, they are not even aware. They don’t even know what is going on in her and how hurt i am now and then. I think of it from both perspectives. Think it must be a tough time in their life, they might need some alone time to think of anything, to clear head. So i also make sure to check on them, to ask about their well being and if they need any help.
On the other side, i get hurt everyday. Every single day i cry. I try to focus on things that i can control and try to change them. But it’s tough. Guess, when you choose to love, you choose to get hurt too. I am justing counting on that things gets better soon. Things turn out well. And for worse, the worse that can happen is they are going to leave. So let it be. It will take time but i guess i will get over it. I no longer know what to do. I just try to be in the present and keep my self running, anyhow.
shruz @shruisdumb
it’s like you’re saying everything that’s on my mind , ik it’s hard it’s been more than 2 and half years now and i still can’t get over it , i push people away i don’t talk to anyone i just stay in my room whole day watchinh kdramas / animes or reading books i don’t go out i don’t laugh anymore i hate it i hate every bit of it
So do i. I no longer control my self. I am an introvert and barely let people in, and so far 10 out 10 times it turned against me. I was left alone, broke, scattered and then the rest of things in life, they were there too. So you cannot cry, you cannot talk to anyone, just keep pushing yourself. Act alive, be a living corpse. That’s what they turn us into. I don’t know if i am going to let anyone in again, i don’t know. But sometimes i also think that i have never done anything bad to anyone in my life. I have never said no if anyone ever needed me, no matter how broke i was from inside. And yet the one person we choose to love, one person that we express our self to, finally get bored or confused or i don’t know wht else. On other side, here i am left alone, crying alone, seeking something and someone that is never going to be mine. It’s not always good to be good. Saddest part, i no longer loves my self. All these things makes me think there is something wrong with me. I feel like going to a psychiatrist, but i am afraid for that too. I don’t know where my life is heading to. I wasn’t not like that. And now i don’t know who i am anymore.
shruz @shruisdumb
pls im going through same thing and ik how hard it is for youu , just know im here for you ! if you ever need a friend to talk to or vent ! and you’re important <3
I am sorry.
//healer// @anjalii
Hey
You are important!!
Help me connect, i just want to talk and vent out something. I am not able to connect.
