I hate my lifeā¦ I am giving up
Everyone has expectations man
And I canāt make each and everyone happyā¦
So basically I am in grade 10 icse and my parents have very very high expectations from me that Iāll score 90% aboveā¦
I was always a scholar till my 9th but due to corona situation though I canāt blame itā¦but I took the situation lightly and copied in each and every exams and didnāt even touched the bookā¦
I regret doing it soo much now
But my parents thought I was working hard at nights but I used to watch movies and seriesā¦
So as my first offline prelims came I thought to tell themā¦but I was very scared because I hadnāt touched the book even once and now I had offline test in a weekā¦I was very scared so I thought I would not tell my parentsā¦
My marks cameā¦I failed in 3 subjectsā¦and got passing marks in rest of the subjectsā¦I lied to my parents that I was second rankā¦
Then the thing I feared the most happenedā¦ teacher called them at schoolā¦ and never in my life I had failed at school I always topped the classā¦they thought it was for praising me but they got to know the truthā¦they felt very very ashamed of meā¦
And from that day onwards the nature of my house changed very muchā¦
Everyone started to hate meā¦they forced me to study every minuteā¦they forcefully woke me up at 5 and allā¦ they now think I have all of my courses are completed but still itās remainingā¦I canāt do it now by seeing their reactionā¦
I am done
I just have one option to give up on lifeā¦
And I know I have exams just in 20 days and even if I go sleepless for these 20 days Iāll not be able to score even 80%
I donāt know what should I doā¦
I just regret everything and cannot do anything elseā¦
And I am very feared about my resultsā¦Iāll not be able to show my face to anyone as Iāll be called a failure rather than a topperā¦and my parents will hate me moreā¦I didnāt know what to doā¦ as it decides my 11th school and further futureā¦I regret it so so muchā¦
I just feel like giving up on life and everything I am not worth livingā¦
I am right now also crying writing this thingā¦
I canāt fight it anymoreā¦
Just giving upā¦ because 20 din me kya hi ho jayega šš
Riya Ghosh @riyaghosh
Donāt give up! I know 20 days arenāt enough, but can be enough, if you give your 100% effortā¦Donāt worry for the resultā¦just give ur 100%ā¦Try to make ur parents understand that," Getting less marks is better than giving up on ur life.
I too am a student and my parents too have high expectations from me,I didnāt got good marks this time, becuase i didnāt studied anythingā¦but I am happy bcz i gave my 100% effort.
All the best, If i can, then u also can:)
Hey hey hey, I believe in you, I know you will try as much as you can. Iām in 10th too, i feel you, honestly.
Donāt give up on life. Thatās one thing you should never do.
Always remember, youāre here for a reason, people LOVE you, no matter what you will ever do there will be people who will always stand by your side.
You got this!