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I hate my lifeā€¦ I am giving up
Everyone has expectations man
And I canā€™t make each and everyone happyā€¦
So basically I am in grade 10 icse and my parents have very very high expectations from me that Iā€™ll score 90% aboveā€¦
I was always a scholar till my 9th but due to corona situation though I canā€™t blame itā€¦but I took the situation lightly and copied in each and every exams and didnā€™t even touched the bookā€¦
I regret doing it soo much now
But my parents thought I was working hard at nights but I used to watch movies and seriesā€¦
So as my first offline prelims came I thought to tell themā€¦but I was very scared because I hadnā€™t touched the book even once and now I had offline test in a weekā€¦I was very scared so I thought I would not tell my parentsā€¦
My marks cameā€¦I failed in 3 subjectsā€¦and got passing marks in rest of the subjectsā€¦I lied to my parents that I was second rankā€¦
Then the thing I feared the most happenedā€¦ teacher called them at schoolā€¦ and never in my life I had failed at school I always topped the classā€¦they thought it was for praising me but they got to know the truthā€¦they felt very very ashamed of meā€¦
And from that day onwards the nature of my house changed very muchā€¦
Everyone started to hate meā€¦they forced me to study every minuteā€¦they forcefully woke me up at 5 and allā€¦ they now think I have all of my courses are completed but still itā€™s remainingā€¦I canā€™t do it now by seeing their reactionā€¦
I am done
I just have one option to give up on lifeā€¦
And I know I have exams just in 20 days and even if I go sleepless for these 20 days Iā€™ll not be able to score even 80%
I donā€™t know what should I doā€¦
I just regret everything and cannot do anything elseā€¦
And I am very feared about my resultsā€¦Iā€™ll not be able to show my face to anyone as Iā€™ll be called a failure rather than a topperā€¦and my parents will hate me moreā€¦I didnā€™t know what to doā€¦ as it decides my 11th school and further futureā€¦I regret it so so muchā€¦
I just feel like giving up on life and everything I am not worth livingā€¦
I am right now also crying writing this thingā€¦
I canā€™t fight it anymoreā€¦
Just giving upā€¦ because 20 din me kya hi ho jayega šŸ˜­šŸ˜ž

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Riya Ghosh @riyaghosh

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Donā€™t give up! I know 20 days arenā€™t enough, but can be enough, if you give your 100% effortā€¦Donā€™t worry for the resultā€¦just give ur 100%ā€¦Try to make ur parents understand that," Getting less marks is better than giving up on ur life.
I too am a student and my parents too have high expectations from me,I didnā€™t got good marks this time, becuase i didnā€™t studied anythingā€¦but I am happy bcz i gave my 100% effort.
All the best, If i can, then u also can:)

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@alishadsz
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Hey hey hey, I believe in you, I know you will try as much as you can. Iā€™m in 10th too, i feel you, honestly.

Donā€™t give up on life. Thatā€™s one thing you should never do.
Always remember, youā€™re here for a reason, people LOVE you, no matter what you will ever do there will be people who will always stand by your side.

You got this!

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