I hate my boss so much. I am trapped in this work because I signed a contract that only lets me go at 2027 or else I have to pay a huge sum of money. I dont have the strength to fight this out in court and at the same time, I have to accept that it may be better to just bite my teeth and tough it out but the boss is such a bastard. He is a fucking narcissist of the highest order. Everything needs to be a praise towards him and he gets so mad and insecure if we dont do it that he mentally abuses us so much. I wish I could leave or find a better job and life. I have taken to watching a lot of porn to forget this situation and thats another rabbit hole…
God please save me.
Few suggestions that helped me to look beyond hating my boss:
1. Find a me time. Noone should be allowed in that except your family.
2. Do the smallest thing daily that will make you proud. For eg: I started having soup daily for dinner to reduce weight. I downloaded a goal tracking app. After 50 days of consistency I was more than proud of myself. At EOD, when you tick the box, you will definitely feel good.
3. Enroll yourself for a skill addition. It can be soft skill or hardskill, but just do it.
4. Replace porn with meditation. For first 30 days it was hard for me, but then the benefits outweigh the urge to watch. I have not watched porn for the last 3 months and it feels good
Hope this helps
I can totally relate to what you’re going through… I was on a contract with my employer which had eventually made me stick it out with them for 5 years… I have 4 months to go…
Every day has been a struggle and I can not wait for the next 16 weeks to wrap up!
I wish I was in a position to quit… even if it meant I had to pay money to leave the company… but my situation was much worse… I would have had to leave the country…
If you think you can pay the money… leave! Your mental well-being is worth much more than that!
Learn the power of Ignorance. It really helps.
And if he is a fucking narcissist or insecure that’s his problem. Not yours.
Let him stay in his own pretty world.
Don’t take anything to heart.
Maybe you can hum a song in your mind when he starts his lecture. That might help. Or start some hobby or something. That will occupy your mind.
And don’t give him the power to control your mind. Try not to think about him. Just ignore such humans. They are not worth your mental peace.
God bless you :)
