Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

i had a guy friend we used to talk a lot then gradually we came too close and started sharing our feelings with each other after kuch months i fell in love with him as i never believed in these kind of stuff like love or something but i started having feelings for him , i shared it with him and found ki he also had same feelings but we were not ready to convert things into relationship too fast so we decided to know each other more deeply. Now , everything was going cute… one day we had some misunderstanding between us which was due to a chat with my girl friend so i just cleared it all and he understood what all happened after that the things became normal.
ab ek din we were on call and he shared with me ki i like my best friend since 2 years and started praising her i was like okay and had feelings ki maybe not more than me hehehe so i didn’t comment further. and then i didn’t feel the same vibes from him which i used to get from him before i asked many times ki kya hogaya so he says my mood is not high these days so it was completely alright ab the next day he asked for virtual stuff moreover virtual sex i said no its not possible wo sab smjha and then one day he said i won’t be able to talk coz i have to focus on my studies etc etc and now i don’t want to rise your hopes and i never wanted a relationship i had a covo with my sister she said relationships never work and i might try being like my ex ( his ex ditched him long before) and then he continued ki merese nhi hopaaegaa uske jaise banna neither my ethics point at that way. after saying this i was confused kyunki next to next day he again texted me ki talk to me then we had a talk and then after that idk why he blocked me from everywhere. I M REGRETTING KI WHY DID I SHARE THAT BOND WITH HIM JISSME KABHI TOH DONO TARAF SE SAME EFFORTS THE BUT AFTER THAT ONLY ONE SIDED… I REALLY WAS IN LOVE AND STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM BUT I AM UNABLE TO ACCEPT THAT HE IS GONE, whenever we used to talk i used to ask ki " do you still feel the same as i feel for you and he always said YESS and mene humesha ussee bola ki sab mujhse duur chale gaye … please tum mat jaanaa me seh nhi paaungi and tab bhi he said ki i will never leave youuu sweetheart" JUST HOPING KI HE WILL MESSAGE ME AGAIN AND THAT TIME I WON’T LET HIM GO. I REALLY DON’T HAVE FRIENDS I WAS INTO HIM FOR SO LONG AND PREVIOUSLY ALSO MY FRIENDS WERE ALWAYS BUSY IN MAKING THERE LOVE LIFE SO I DISTANCED MYSELF FROM THEM. I AM REALLY CONFUSED BARELY INTERESTED IN OTHER STUFFS. (ik this post is quiet long but i poured out my feelings)