Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I had a group of friends
They always made plans but I was never allowed to go out anywhere
I have abusive parents
So they’d beat me even if I asked about going out
So I’d never join my friends
They thought I was being arrogant and mean and wasn’t hanging out with them because I was not liking them
They started to taunt me and stuff
And used to say a tons of things
Then one day I had it all
in the morning I got scoldings from my parents and they even got violent
and that day I had it
my friends were continuously taunting and saying things(maybe in a fun way Idk)
and I literally had an anxiety attack so I shouted broke down there and cried in front of them
and told them everything
they were good for few days and then they slowly started maintaining distance and started to ghost me
I feel very bad now