I guess some people didn't like my way of interaction and I want to say sorry for that. 

Keep Smiling :) 

Gratitude

I was so pissed and was complaining about my life and u.. And then again god showed up in a way💗.with god everything is possible. Who are u? Why should i be scared of you? When u were the reason for my depression did u ever know this? God finded me and took me out from that bad phase. And many times he saved me.i decided... I ll be celebrating my special day with god, angels, guides, nature and my cat. I ll go with my friends out.. Will look prettyy. Will click pics..will take myself on a date. Will ✨do anything to make myself happy coz i fucking deserve it. 

Affirmations

Can anyone explain anxiety attack 

3am Thoughts

There's always a person who comes into our lives mix up completely that we couldn't even forget them , just sit there crying for them and just leave calmly 🙄😑....when are they minds going to grow 🤦.....never give someone a chance to mix up our clear mind..... it's better to shut them up🙃

Mindfulness

Kon kon jaag rha h abhi???? 

How long does it take for people to trust someone? 

Society

My 12yo brother uses my phone for making his art. I'm okay with it. But sometimes when I need my phone he doesn't give it back, and I feel this rage fuming from me and couldn't shout and express my anger. This is always like this, I cannot f*****g express my anger. And while suppressing it I feel like a complete idiot. I feel I'm the one who is making drama, overreacting to it. I have this questions popping inside my head, It's just a phone why I'm reacting like this, It would be hard for him to understand if I don't express what's hurting me, and there are infinite questions that are fighting to conclude the reasons for my overreaction and why I should stop it. It hurts. Everything that hurts me becomes more evident and like flashes come at me, making me more suffer. And also I don't won't my brother to see me as some villian like some one who abuses etc whatever it is. 

Relationships

It's 2:30pm and i have no one to talk to 
I'm alone 
I have no one to explain what I'm feeling right now
It hurts so bad that I just don't want to feel anything

I’ve been on and off with a guy for more than years now. We were together for a couple of months and then i went abroad for my studies. Before leaving, I guess 3 days before leaving, he proposed me and said that he loved me. I didn’t say anything at that point of time because i cannot decided whether i love someone or not in just 1-2 months. I told me that my heart is beating fast and that I didn’t expect him to propose me this soon because according to me, love takes time. After leaving, on the first or second week of my stay in abroad, i got really drunk and told him that i loved him and he said he loves me too. But next morning when i asked him if he meant it, it said ‘i just said it because I didn’t want to ruin your mood’ and i was literally in shock. It was difficult for me to move on when I’m in a new country and all that i had in my heart was him. We were still in contact but after 2 months, we disappeared. And i was calling him texting him, but there was no response. I moved on. I stopped calling/texting and after a month, he was back. He made some stupid excuse that her sister found out about me and that she was angry and he promised her that he wont be in contact with me. I didn’t care because i knew he was lying. It was on and off for a year but one day, he expressed how sorry he was and that he messed up and he wants everything back but idk it didn’t feel right to me. I told him my feelings for him is 50/50 and that i dont trust him. After that too, we were still on and off. In the middle of 2020, he said ‘please come back soon, i want this distance to be over’ and i said i will. We stopped talking after that. After 4 months of not talking, i was going back to my country but i didnt text him because we were already not in contact and its just rude if i text him like ‘hey! I’m coming back’ i felt like I’ll make him feel he’s my backup option or something. After i came back, we didn’t speak for another 2-3 months. So, in total it was around 6-7 months of not talking but i missed him. I texted him and said that i was to clear the air between us and he blew me off. He used to reply me after 4-5 hours sometimes days. I stopped texting. On new years, he texted me ‘happy new year love’ and my replies were dry so he got offended. He was like my life’s been a mess lately and that his grandmother was very sick. I checked his dad’s fb account and he was chilling. I knew he was lying about it too. Now, it was him birthday a few days ago and i didn’t wish him (he never wished me on my birthdays for 2 years) but i felt bad and i felt like i shouldn’t be like him. Idk what’s attracting me towards him when i know he doesn’t care at all. What should i do! Now i wanna go back but the only reason that i came back to my country was to marry him. What if i go back and he’s back? What if i stay and he never comes? I’m so confused!

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