Emilia @nobodymuch
I feel so rebellious, like I am so mad at this world or at myself and that I just donβt care. I have always known to shut up about my own opinion or that I am too afraid to just say anything or do anything. Iβve just grown to talk with myself or to keep it to myself. I found friends eventually but then I moved away. I found stupid fake friends who just abandoned me when they had the chance. Now I just am so annoyed at people, at everyone, always rude to my parents or silently thinking horrible stuff. I feel like I just have enough but I donβt know how, I have no friends and I am lonely, Iβm tired and I donβt even care if I donβt wake up one morning. I donβt get that feeling anymore (about the dying) but sometimes I just do when I feel like I have nothing to live for. What do I do?
Hang in there bud, things arenβt going to be the same always. If we know one thing for sure, itβs that change is constant. So as once you had good times which changed to what youβre experiencing now, Iβm sure these will change too.