Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel so down today so heartbreaking. I have been trying to get a job for the past two months and I finally get a little ray of hope and now it just feels like what if I’m not good enough or if somebody else takes that job that I really want and I’m also like afraid that I might’ve failed that behavioral assessment I haven’t failed it is this what if Molly characteristics still match with what they want not to mention I’m still struggling to pass this stupid history test that has become one of my biggest hurdles and All this was gonna be different. I thought this year was going to be good and his first two days were very good full of hope but right now I just feel really down in the slums. My body hurts and I’m just getting back to you know kind of my low. I am starting to enter my depressive episodes or my depressive time. And I can feel it and I don’t wanna be here because I know that. Whenever I get depressed, I lose all my progress and I can’t w to come just to. You don’t have to start over again with my progress. It just sucks because right now I feel like absolute shit.