I feel really numb and worthless. I have this weird thing where I canβt really identify and label emotions.
Like whenever something happens, like a fight with a friend or family member or something bad happens, I usually tell my partner about it. But mostly itβs just factual stuff, like this is what I said, then they said this and all.
And then he asks me how do I feel about it. And I never have an answer. I find it so difficult to know what Iβm feeling. And I think itβs the reason I cry so much. Because I donβt know what emotion Iβm feeling, I donβt know how to tackle it and then I just cry like how babies do. I have also spoken to my therapist about it but she said that βIβm blocking my emotionsβ. I donβt know how to explain this to people. Like, when I tried explaining this to my partner, he said, βThey are feelings. How can you not know what youβre feeling?β
I do understand that it can be difficult for anyone to fathom when I say that I donβt know what Iβm feeling. But it is what it is. And it gets really exhausting sometimes because thereβs so much happening and I have no idea what emotion it is and how to deal with it.
Am I weird? Is this kinda thing normal?