I feel quite anxious about not being valued people close to me treat me like I just fucking don’t exit and i hate that fact!

Coz i get replies like I didn’t asked for your critique while that person was asking for my views on something 

That's okay... everyone can have their view

Yes but I wasn’t even giving my views and i was asked to shut up like what the hell i did wrong to u man?

Yes I wouldn’t coz that’s not true at all sir

Why do you feel anxious on not being valued?

R as in Real 

For them you might not be close that's why 

Anxiety

wanna end it all fr

3am Thoughts

Days are going like light of speed. Still in these fast time. A moment or period of anxiety and worry about future brings everything to standstill.

Day 8 of praying. 

Affirmations

U guys i had a bucket list of such crazy and wild adventures. I wanted to try every thinggg. Last year i was 17 years old and i wanted to lose my virginity before 18. Yes that was on my bucket list. But i didnt forced myself to complete that wish of mine. And eventually my wish came true and i did lost it before 18 with a guy who was 2 years older than me. He was kind and gentle with me. This wasnt a relationship, it was a no strings attached relation. After him i had sex with 2 other guys. I was kinda addicted. I was so addicted that i did it almost every single day. I was in the wrong place. And all these guys were around 20 - 23 yrs old.
Im not saying that they used me or something but I somehow feel that they didnt care about me and they just talked with me because they wanted this.
I mean yeah i know this is what friends with benefits is but i dont think so Im a person who is okay with the fact that when you share very intimate moments with a person i just want to forget it just like that. I want to remember those moments and i want to cherish them. 
I dont regret having sex before 18 but i could have waited a little bit longer.
Anyhow, currently Im 18 and Ive decided I wont have sex with anyone just for the satisfaction or for the heck of it. Cause sex is something more than that and Im happy that i understood this thing. 

Happy

Compassion

Is there any other platform like omegle which is safe to use?

Confusion

Very stressful as i couldn't study today . 

Stress

I just fought with my dad...our relationship can never improve... it's just unbearable now...coz he doesn't respect and consider my choices..never did actually.....I then think of least I should keep quiet thinking of things that he actually does for me but then lose control maybe it's because my parents fight and as I have seen them arguing and lashing out I learned the same....and whenever I think of getting in a relationship with someone. I think of sharing this stuff with them..because...now I just not only get hurt but also feel all the anxiety with a choked and rapidly beating heart...I get scared of being vulnerable with someone..that they won't understand...and will think that I m behaving like a girl who is a victim of all the problems and believes that only others are at fault...would make me feel. even more miserable and lonely.

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