Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel numb honestly. So basically I’ve been with my boyfriend for 3 years in a long distance relationship and then he and I broke up cause it went little too toxic but we still feel for each other and guess what now we’re in the same city we also met but he said he don’t wanna talk or meet me because he gets flashbacks whenever he’s around me he can’t resist it and old memories which makes him weak and hurt him… I might sound selfish but I let him go and it made me so happy being around him but now I can’t because I don’t want him to get hurt. He said this too because we don’t have future and that’s because we’re from different religions in India which is very different and affects situations it’s not easy … I wish it was easy I wish it was normal so I could have done anything to keep that person with me. I just feel so clueless and helpless…