i feel miserable i have lost my wallet with my money i was taken to my grandparents house and had to sit there wondering why my grandad had to go i would give my own life if i could just to get his back i also s-h today im not proud it just got too much i couldnt keep feeling angry for why i didnt go to his funeral why i didnt try to ask why is life worse why do people just tak our word when we say we are fine most of the time we want to throw ourselves off of a cliff but i just cant not with my little sister i cannot let her be without her big brother my mum doesnt know the reason i dont eat its because things dont go away with time or talking somtimes things need to be done before it changes i got back to school after so long of having cirtain covid rules i do not do well with big changes overall i feel like 'sh#t
I can totally relate with you, even I lost my grandma this April. I know it’s difficult to stay strong when you yourself are emotionally weak. But you know what, time is the best healer. With time you’ll get the answers that you need, with time you’ll forgive yourself.
Give yourself time & do not be harsh on yourself.
Take care & you are stronger than you think, you’ll survive❤
i have waited 15 years for time to heal why try when theres nothing changing
I understand, but this is life dear. You fall and you learn. The experiences you have been subjected to rn, will make you a better person. You know the world is full of selfish people, you should feel proud that you are one of those people who are thoughtful, who genuinely empathizes with others. One day dear, everything will make sense to you, do not lose hope so soon. Life is full of surprises, wait till the odds are in your favor😊
You said you can’t leave your younger sister, it’s good that you have someone to live for. But let’s say that you lose one of your fingers some day, would you blame your sister for keeping you alive when it wouldn’t have happened if you just ended it long before? Let’s not dedicate our life to anyone when our life is horrendous. It’s like giving ded rat as a present on that someone’s birthday. If you really want to live for your sister, then live properly. Then she can be proud being your life source or hope or whatever. Your sister wouldn’t like it if she finds out she’s your inspiration for living and you’re living shte, you know. No one else knows you’re suffering, things needs to be done before it changes, what are you waiting for? A superhero to knock on your door? I may sound rude right now, but you live for yourself first. It doesn’t matter how long it takes. Be that a year or five. Slowly. Be angry as much as you want. Cry until you can’t anymore. Eat, and eat, and eat. Move forward. Ask yourself if you want to change. If there is something indeed, even it’s just changing the way you hold a spoon, then there’s definitely something to keep going for. If there’s something you want to be, then rejoice. If there’s nothing you want to be, I say you’re a cowardly liar. You want things to be better, don’t you? The fact that you’re disappointed and mad at life for being so difficult, means you’re hoping for something better.
You’re lovely, Sad Bear.
— Hal
