I feel like shit. Basically I feel like I might be non binary so I did lots of research and found that its probably true, but i cant come out ever. I feel like my internalized transphobia from my peers and family around me is making me feel invalid enough to come as part of the 2slgbtqa+. I have a friend who is trans, and he come out to me 1 year ago. He heavily trusted me and we even picked out a new name for him. I think about him a lot but I cant get his deadname out of my head and I scared that If i see him, Imma call him his dead name and he will no longer trust me. I don’t know what to do, my parents are always using his deadname around me so maybe that’s it?, but it feels no matter how hard I try to get rid on my internalized transphobia it comes back to haunt me. I also noticed I only have a problem with him as I’ve meet so many other people part of the Trans community and haven’t thoughts these transphobic thoughts. I got to a very religious school so its very rare are someone to come as part of the 2slgbtqa+ community. Someone from my school actually come out today but since school already ended I don’t know how the school is going to react. I do have friends from my other school, who aren’t homophobic and would heavily accept me but I feel like I don’t belong to them anymore as I left them for a new school. (Sorry my grammar is shit, hope you can understand if someone reads this) I don’t know what to do, I just need advise? help??? Any tips??
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