I feel like my heart has been stabbed over and over again and I can’t breathe, I made a terrible mistake in the past and a person I truly loved was hurt and drove him away. time passed and we got together and now we’re soon to be married. i adore him with all my heart, but we’ve had these specific discussion where I’m reminded constantly about what a terrible person I used to be and how badly I hurt him. and it sticks to me those words and hurts each time more, but for him it’s just moving on and forgetting about it. I feel alone with my feelings and thoughts’
and i promise I’ve changed I try my best to be a better person everyday, and I want to give him everything he deserves because he is truly amazing. I just need to stop being reminded of how I used to screw up, brings up trauma I left in the past.
I am a male and i think he would really appreciate you telling him that you regret what you have done. And also if he came back to you and wants to marry you then he doesn’t look at you in a bad way so you shouldn’t keep that over your head.
I just talked with him for over 15 minutes and I got no reply from him other than an “I love you, talk to you later” and that was it. I already forgave myself a while back from everything but I don’t think he did and it’s confusing because why did he ask me to marry him then? im starting to think I don’t deserve being forgiven.
Ok it Will be hard to hear but, he doesn’t want to talk about it then because he don’t want to bring back the bad memories. I don’t want to give you a guilt trip but you just need to move on like he did. Trust me as a man, if he wants to marry you, he loves you more than anything else. So try to forgive yourself and stop thinking about the past so much because you can’t change it. He still loves you and that is all that matters now :)
Thank you. ❤️
I hope you will have a good wedding :)