I feel like in a position where even my good friends at college aren't interested in speaking to me anymore !! I'm perplexed and I really don't know how to overcome it. When I look around I feel I don't have anyone to share my feelings with, literally no one. That's how bad it is !! They don't speak to me the way they used to and even if they did it was because of someone's influence. I dunno how to handle its been really hurting inside and I'm not able to focus on my studies. Can someone help out,  thanks in advance 😊

Engineering in Electrical and Electronics 

Depression

Day 111 of writing journal entries.

I’m really tired, and stressed out. I honestly just wish that friendship in the United States could go back to what it used to be… because I could use a friend like that right now. Someone who I can get all the hugs i need from without feeling judged or ridiculed. 

I’m sick and tired of people acting the way they do. I know there are good people, I see them online all the time, like on this app, I just wish I could see these people in real life, and be their friend.

Personal Growth

Sometimes I feel afraid to talk people cos one day they will leave me for good, I always wanted to have a bestfriend that he/she always there for me and I'll be there for them but nah nowadays people are so selfish and move on so fast, did anyone else thinks like I do? 

I egnore my friends in lockdown I was feeling not well bcos.
I was not feeling guilty at all bcos somewhere I was upset with them i donno they are not texting me.what to do .


Anxiety

I want someone to guide me why life is not going according to me for a long time one of my friends have people attracted to him and make group easily and the people that were impressed with me and admire me are now for some odd reasons getting attracted to him follow as he say and I feel very out of control that this is not good why it happens that I am not able to make friends groups and people are intrested in him for no reason

Friends

I want to talk to my trusted and go-to friends, but i don't want to bother them why do i even feel this way. 

Frustration

During my first year of graduation my friends  were like they are the best people i have found but as the time changes, people too. They started showing their true colours like making useless excuses for not hanging out with me and there was one of my friend( To whom i considered my best friend) only talks to me when she needs something or mainly for projects and assignments. I helped them and tried my best to motivate them to overcome their problems they are facing. But when i was in some kind of problem they were like “it’s ok you will get over it 😞”. At sometime i tried too hard to believe that my friends are not selfish and mean but as the time goes on i have seen their changed behaviour and nature in the last 2-3 years. I am wondering now whether i was their friend or just a random person to whom they contact only for work. I don’t know why this always happened with me. I always tried my best to maintain a good and positive relation with my best friend but now i think i was just wasting my energy and time 😞😞First in school, now in college 😞


Last week I made a friend here but they stopped talking, idk if it's some technical issue with their account or they just find me weird and stopped talking, anyway it triggered my schizophrenia and I am feeling more lonely than before. I don't deserve good friends or any kind of close interaction with anyone.

Mental Illness

I don't think I have friends whom I can trust blindly. I don't have a good social circle and I feel that's something which is very important in one's life. Hanging out with the right people who help you flourish.

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